Impossible not to love //Minho

No, you where never.

HELLO HUMAN BEINGS
Imma make some of y'all mad but I feel REALLY uncomfortable with writing smut, I dont like it but maybe someday I will try again.

I'm sorry for this but I just couldnt bring it up to do it, again, maybe someday.

I am still in france and it's way to hot to live, but I'm okay. I like it here but there is no Wifi AT ALL!

it's okay, I dont really need it but it was a bit of a problem for posting the chapters.

But I wanted to write 1 anyway so here I go,
Bye bitches!

LY Y'ALL💋💋💋

It was impossible not to wake up from the loud snoring that Minho made, as I couldn't sleep any further I decide to go for a walk.

I struggle to get out of Minho's grip but when i get out o walk outside, closing the door softly.

When I look around I see a amazingly fast shadow disappear into the woods, it was quite long and had short hair, what wasn't a surprise when being in a maze with only male people.

When I finaly reach the woods I see some one climbing up in a giant tree. I try and see who it is but it was still to dark and other lights were way to far.

I come closing and see...

'Newt? Newt, is that you? Why are you here so damn early' I ask him still thinking about why he was here.

He gasps and look around to me. Newt looks terrified and like he needs sleep immediately. When I come even closer I see tears streaming down and making his shirt wet.

'I -, I dont know, well I do, but it doesnt matter. Go away' he says trying to steady his voice but failing horribly.

'Its okay newt, it's going to be okay. Jus- just come down the tree, I'm here.'I try to sound comforting.

'NO, I come here every night just to fail and chicken out. I'm done, I dont want to do this anymore. But nobody cares and no one knows.' As tears keep on flowing there wasnt a spot on his shirt that wasnt wet, like he had been crying all night long.

'I know what you're going through, trust me. I'm here for you, just come down.' I try again.

'NO, YOU WERE NEVER, YOU WERE NEVER "here" FOR ME, NEVER! YOU'RE ALWAYS BUSSY WITH YOURSELF, AND YOUR IDIOT BOYFRIEND. NOW GO AWAY, IF YOU DIDNT KNEW, I DONT WANT YOU HERE' he yells and making his hands into little bunny's while saying the word 'here'.

I feel tears forming in my eyes but I wouldnt let them, I had to stay strong for someone that had pretended they where strong and okay for probably a long, long time.

'Yes newt, you're right. I havnt been myself for the past time, I have been distant, mean, uninterested and I haven't had a good night sleep in forever. But I haven't had the best time either, you know. I really do know what you are going through and it is breaking my heart into at least a million pieces to see you like this.'

'I'm am sorry for not noticing anything and I could hit myself in the head untill I feel like I can forgive myself, what wont be fast. I am sorry for being such an shitty friend, I should have been there for you. I'm sorry for all the things I have done and could have done better. I'm sorry for being here and fucking everyone's life up. I'm sorry for not having any control at all in this stupid place. In sorry for bothering everyone
I'm sorry for having all this attention when it should have been for you. I'm sorry okay, for so much then you can think of ' 
When I finish I take a deep breathe like I have said that without breathing at all.

Tears now finaly start to fall and I see the emotion on Newt's face change. Hatred turns into something else, something like pure sadness.

He doesnt looks as hesitant as before, he looks like he know what to do. I get scared when I see him move and I hear him say.

'And I'm sorry that you have to lie like that. Goodbye y/n, tell everyone I loved them.'

'OH NO NO NO NO NEWT, YOU ARE SHUCKING GOING TO TELL THEN YOURSELVES, GET YOU STUPID ASS DOWN HERE AND SHUT THE KLUNK UP' I hear as I see Minho storm into the woods.

Newt tries to stay in the tree but falls and hits a branch. I hear an terrifying sound of a bone that breaks, I freeze and Minho runs past me and catches his best friend.

'No no no no no, come on, COME ON NEWT. Why did you had to do that... why' minho let's a small sniff escape and he turns to me and starts yelling.

'WHY DIDNT YOU DO ANYTHING, YOU WHERE HERE THE WHOLE TIME? WHY DIDNT YOU GET ME OR ANYONE ELSE. YOU COULD HAVE ANYTHING, BUT YOU FROZE AND DIDNT DO 1 KLUNK'

Crying I storm to the medjack hut and grab some stuff to help newt.

I knew Minho didnt meant it really,  he was just scared because his best friend had just tried to kill themselves. He couldnt bare the thoughts of losing newt, or anyone else.

When I turn around I see Minho carrying Newt and lying him down on a bed. Newt had past out in the meantime and his leg was in a weird position.

I check to see if it's open but newt was quite lucky, I see Minho get white when he sees Newt's leg in this abnormal position.

In the meantime I pass Minho a garbage can as I knew that Minho could puke every second.

The moment I give it he throws up in it and walks outside to leave me do my thing.

I see that the break wasnt that bad, it would heal in one to two weeks, even though newt would still have some problems with walking.

I finish up newt and sit down on another bed, I made a promise with myself that I would stay here with newt all night long and I wouldnt leave even if someone carried me with them.

So I wait and wait and wait.

A few moments later I accidentally fall asleep and i feel a pair of hand wrap around me and carry me somewhere. Not caring one bit I snuggle into there chest.

I hear a voice speaking and I understand that its Minho.

'Goodnight, I'm sorry for what I said, I didnt mean it'

Soft lips that I know well hit my forehead and I feel myself drifting into an empty sleep, no dreams appear and it feels quite nice with everything that had happened.