16/4/2021
I'm asleep yet I'm awake I'm fed yet I'm starved I'm alive yet I'm Dead I'm in love yet she took my heart I'm over her but I still ache I miss my ex I left her twice we no longer talk she was the only one who ever got me but I broke her heart and now I look at everyone else with envy.
I'm trying to understand people I just want someone to love me as much as I'll love them I've fallen twice in a year but none of these bitches want me I know my words are aggressive but I'm trying to stop my heart bleed.
I know I can be loud I know I joke about I know I can be immature but don't you see I'm trying to pit myself out there but this anxiety cripples me I'm scared all my peers hate me I don't even know if there my friends I'm trying not to cry my eyes out when will this pain end?
Why can't I connect? Why can't I understand? Why don't they like me is there anyone out there that even understands, someone who understands what it's like to be trapped in the dark to want someone who you can hold you tight who can help you stitch up your bleeding heart? I just want to connect but for now I'm living in the dark.
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Poetry of a foster kid
PoetryThis is a collection of poetry I made from ages 15 to 17 it's about mental health and growing up the last few years in foster care it's a journey about maturing as a kid but also learning to grow and deal with my demons in the on going battle of eve...
