Something i need right now is sleep. I only was able to sleep on the plane for an hour. Then after that at the terminal for another hour finding our shit. Then an an hour 45min after to find a place for Mattia to eat. Got to the check in and showered and left again to work on the photoshoot. Im tired. My head hurts and my low iron deficiency is acting up.
Im finally able to leave. I tell everyone bye and walk out the warehouse studio. O go to my yellow Camaro that i rented for the couple weeks here for my job and went back to the hotel.
I pull into a parking spot and i immediately become hesitant to get out of the car. I dont know, im just not ready to face him. Im usually understanding, but, when you can't understand me and where im coming from, that is when you get the other side of me. Im a sweetheart but if i feel im not being understood, listened too, or I feel like a burden then i shut you out and i shut off. End of discussion. My opinions, emotions, feelings, and presence have been invalidated by everyone. My kindness has been taken for weakness and for granted and im sick of that.
I get out the car and go to the elevator. I see him. What is he doing here? Why does he have to be at this hotel?
He sees me waves and we make eye contact. I let the elevators close and have a mini panic attack.
Y/n: Kobe is here. Same. Hotel. Oh. No. No. No. this is bad. This is so bad.
I get off on my floor and go to my room slide the key card and go in.
Mattia: Hey.
I see him and he looks bad. Like me being mad at him is eating him alive. At least he knows he did wrong and he feels bad for it.
Y/n: Hi
Mattia: How was the first part of the shoot?
Y/n: Ida isnt coming til day three. My hairstylist pulled the fuck outta my hair so i asked for a new one, my makeup artist is rough so they fired her. I looked good but its a lot of uncomfortable behind the scenes.
Mattia: Ill go to the next one. I wanted to go this time but i knew you were mad at me and wanted nothing to do with me.
Y/n: Yeah. Just dont do it again, comprende?
Mattia: Si.
I start laughing at him because he sounds funny. I grab him and give him a kiss.
He grabs my waist and picks me up. He move his hands lower and grabs my butt. He takes me to the bedroom and lays me down.
Mattia: Can i take this off you?
He says looking at my bra under my sweater top.
I smile
Y/n: Yes
He unbuckles it with one hand and throws it across the room. He starts sucking on his favorite breast, my right one.
Y/n: uhh okayyyy
I say. Ive never been fully aroused off my nipples before. This was new. He pulls my bottoms off and goes down on me. I wrap my legs around his neck. Slightly suffocating him. He is going in. He pulls his head away and looks at me.
Mattia: I love you
My mind was so blown I couldn't speak. He knew that and smiled. He got up fixed his hair and went to go get ice.
Oh shit. Kobe.
Mattia doesnt like Kobe based on the things I've told him about Kobe and i's relationship. He will fight kobe and knowing how kobe and Mattia gets when they are angry, that wouldnt be a pretty sight. Kobe would tear Mattia apart.
He goes out the door and i dont here from him for the next fifteen minutes because ice is on the outside of the third floor and we are on the fifth.
