Reckless 2 - JinByul Fanfiction

Chapter 17

CHAPTER 17

They spent the entire afternoon doing watching movies, cuddling, bickering, making out and all.

The night falls and Jin cooked dinner for the both of them. They are now in his bedroom, looking over to the city lights of Tokyo. They are sitting side by side on his bed. He can feel that Byul is staring intently at him, longing in her eyes.

"What's wrong with my baby? Are you tired?"

She went closer to him and laid her head on his shoulder.

"It warms my heart seeing you this close to me. We never had this kind of peace in a long time. It's so good to feel this calmness between us. I honestly couldn't stop myself from picturing our future together and how fortunate I am to have you by my side."

He got down from the bed and kneeled in front of her. He took her hands, kissing each before looking at her eyes- a simple and innocent gesture that reflects gratitude to this very moment that they have now.

"Byulyi, I've asked myself about this a lot of times. If you didn't come into my life, if you hadn't been patient with me, hadn't been so forgiving and understanding, if you hadn't accepted me, if you didn't take that step with me,

I wonder where my life could be heading now? It scares me to wake up one day and all of this, is just a dream. But those simple moments that we had, the simple things that we did earlier, they remind me of how things are now between us. That what we have is not just an imagination. I'm living again. I'm breathing again. And I'm moving forward to and working for a life that we'll be kind to us."

He stood up, taking her with him. He gently pulls her towards his body, she on the other hand, leans her head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat.

They form a silent understanding of what the hug means. Comfort from all the pain and hardships they went through. Assurance from all the uncertainties and chaos around them.

He's slowly moving their bodies into the rhythm of their breathing, a melody coming from the beating of their hearts.

"If we will be given a chance to change our lives before meeting each other, will you take it?" He asked her.

"Change doesn't mean certainty right? I have no idea if we'll be in this path if we will have a different life. I'm not even sure if I can meet you if that happens. Maybe life would have been easier for us? Maybe we don't need to be hurt. We don't need to suffer.

But, I wouldn't take it still. We had a choice even before. No one asked us to choose this. No one told me to choose you. I had the opportunity to walk away but I walked closer to you.

This, us, it's tough. But at least I know I get to experience this with you. At least I know that I have the chance to be with you. At least I know that I have someone to share these feelings with. At least I know that I can love you and I will love you. Even if I have to experience this hardship over and over in different lifetimes, I'll choose this knowing that I have you now. I'll choose this if this is the way to have you in the end.

You know what Jin, I find our situation crazy. We're in a huge mess. I don't know if fate is against us or is only playing with us. We don't even know what lies ahead, nor if there will be a change of hearts. But there is only one certain thing that I'm holding on to.

My faith, that whatever happens, we'll choose each other. I hope that you'll always choose me."

"I will. Over a hundred reasons. In different lifetimes."

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He slowly laid her down on his bed, gazing at her lovingly, and letting her know how he feels without uttering any word.

They made love countless of times, already familiar with their bodies. Already know how to pleasure each other and even how to drive each one another crazy. But tonight, it's different.

It's not because they are in a different place, nor they have never been this intimate in a long time.

It's because of the trust and respect that radiates from the two of them. They don't feel the need of being one. But more on, it's the most natural thing for them to do at this moment.
The connection that they have in this silence, their hearts speaking for them.

The moment he sees what her eyes are showing, he is now sure more than ever.

They do not contain the usual fondness they have when she is looking at him in the normal days. They do not contain the usual fiery they have when she is looking at him during arguments. They do not contain the usual gratitude they have when he has done something for her.

It's too hard for her to show emotions through her eyes exactly the opposite for him. But when it's him, she's not afraid to bare her soul to him. She doesn't think twice in letting him in. Breaking her own walls to reach out to him.

Just like how her eyes are always bright, clear, and sincere when she looks at him.

Seeing her beneath him, her eyes, showing adoration and submission.
A tear escaped from his eye.

"I never told you this even once, but I know I have shown you countless of times. I have used so many words to let you know how I feel, and I hope you know. I have a lot of things to be thankful for about you, because of you. But I'm glad that I'll be able to say this to you.

Moonbyul-yi, how lucky I am to feel this about you.

"I love you. And I'm forever grateful to love you.”

He made love to her that night. Over and over. Giving not only his body but all that he is to her. She fully surrendered herself to him again. This time without reservations.

“Do you still remember that you told me you’ll do whatever I’ll tell you to? I’ll use it now Jin.”

“What does my princess want?”

“No matter what happens, I only ask you to trust me.”

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