Reckless 2 - JinByul Fanfiction

Chapter 22

CHAPTER 22

He did nothing but to drown himself from his miseries. He doesn’t know what he’ll do with his life. He couldn’t even face his father. He couldn’t face anyone. The thought of losing her is already a retribution to the faulty choices he had in life. He is regretting his decision but he couldn’t choose her knowing that he could break her. He’s drowning in guilt.

He couldn’t forgive himself for leaving her that day. He’s afraid he’ll lose himself this time.

After being out for a few days, he miraculously went home to his house. Their supposed to be home. He knew that she already moved out since Yongsun informed him on the same day they last talked.

He invited their friends over. Just like how she wanted to.

He drinks alcohol while waiting for them to arrive. He looks at himself in the mirror. He cannot recognize himself anymore. He is so lost in love. He’s longing for Byulyi but he’s hating himself more as he lets his love for her break them again and again.

Then they came.

“Welcome welcome. Come on get inside. I’ve been waiting for you since earlier.”

“Hyung, you're drunk. You need to rest now.”

“You’re spoiling the fun Joonie. Just join me okay? Let’s celebrate my stupidity in life. Come on help yourselves.”

Hani cannot stand what she sees.

“Jin please, listen to us. Look at you? Are you on a slow suicide?”

“What if I am? Don’t look at me with pity. You told me that you’re gonna kill me if I hurt Byul. Are you going to kill me now?”

Hani couldn’t answer him.

“Stop this Jin.”

“Aish noona. Don’t be like this to me.”

“Where have you been all this time hyung?” Yoongi asked him.

“I’m trying to move on. I just came from a heart break.”

“Noona needed you.” Tae added.

“I can’t be with her."

He didn’t expect that he’ll get punched by Jungkook.

He staggered from the impact of getting hit, allowing himself to sink on the floor. He howled with laughter until it became sobs.

“Stop with your nonsense hyung! You know her more than anyone else! We all saw how much she loved you! How much she fought for you! How she silently wept while pretending to be strong in front of everyone! You’re not the only one who’s hurting!”

“You left her on her own! You threw away all your sacrifices! Why do you have to hurt the both of you?!”

“Jungkook-ah. Calm down.” – Yongsun

“I trust her more than anyone else. But I don’t know what to do. I’m a wreck. Do you think she deserves this version of me? Do you think she’ll be happy with me if this is how I am? We’ll just hurt even worse if I chose to be with her.”

“She’s gone Jin.”

He went still.

“What do you mean?!”

“Seokjin.”

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At some point in our lives, we can relate to Jungkook. We're emotoonal human beings right? We just want the people we love to be happy specially if we saw how much they suffered. It can be frustrating seeing them do things that can make them suffer even more. But that's life. Not all people know what to do or can get a grip of what's happening. We can also be conflicted if we're in the same situation. If you were Jin, what will you do?