although it's hard to write when you only have been broken up with for 5 hours and you don't know what happened, i can write some things.
"cause it's always one step forward and three steps back" i was just finally getting happy but i guess that's not how i'm meant to live in this world
"i'm the love of your life until I make you mad" i thought he loved me but i guess i messed that up too
"it's always one step forward and three steps back"
"do you love me, want me, hate me? boy, i don't understand. no, i don't understand" i didn't understand the logic. the past few weeks have been mixed signals left and right. so maybe it was my fault.
i was tired. i put my guitar down and turned off my piano before reading the rest of the lyrics i wrote down
and maybe in some masochistic way i kinda find it all exciting like, which lover will i get today? will you walk me to the door or send me home cryin'?
i am so good at writing. i laughed softly and put everything away before going back to my room.
my small new york apartment felt like it was closing in on me. i went into my room and closed the door. i just couldn't do it anymore. it all hurt
"it's brutal out here" i said laying down on my bed. i grabbed my phone and saw a text from nick. i groaned and opened it
nick armstrong we are still friends right?
kayla tays huh? really?
nick armstrong what?
kayla tays so you can break my heart then ask to be friends?
nick armstrong i just can't fully lose you
kayla tays pls stop contacting me rn. i will text you when i am ready
nick armstrong forgot you were bitchy
i groaned and went to instagram to see what was happening over there. i saw jace posted
jace @/jaceysmith
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finally mine ;)
→ sapnap @/sapnapinsta pretty girl → user @/user7 sir what ab ur gf....
→ karl @/karljacobs cool.
→ kay @/kaytays ur so hot → jace @/jaceysmith says you pretty
i laughed at her response before turning my phone off. i screamed into my pillow then started crying again
punz's pov:
i laughed as i saw sapnap karl and kayla's comments under jace's new post. it was kind of funny already.
i noticed it was already 1 am. i had ended the live seconds ago and questioned on what to do. sleeping didn't sound all that fun but there was nothing else to do
netflix it is. before i could turn my tv on i got i discord message from kayla.
weird
oh! group chat with me her and karl. makes more sense now.
kayla tays hey umm i have a question
punztw hit me
karl jacobs i may have an answer if ur lucky
kayla tays does nick like jace? i saw his comment and i feel like y'all might know
punztw i have no clue. he has acted different since she came along tho
karl jacobs i agree on that one
kayla tays oh ok thank you guys
karl jacobs do you want me to call you?
punztw let me join i am bored
kayla tays don't let him join
punztw bitch.
i laughed at her as she called the group chat that the three of us shared. i answered and was met with kayla who was laying on her bed. and karl who was sitting at his desk
"hello punzie" karl said as i set my phone up
"hello karlos" i said. suddenly kayla fell off her bed and we all laughed
"SORRY" she yelled before getting back up on the bed. i smiled and kept playing valorant. karl laughed at her
"hey punzie poo" kayla said
"please just call luke" i said. she smiled
"hey lukey" she said. i laughed
"hey kayla" i said. she just smiled softly.
i went back to my game and paid zero attention to anything else. i heard karl and kayla talking to each other.
kayla's pov:
i made my way into my music room with both of the boys still on call. decided to work more on the song i wrote earlier.
i played my piano quietly making both boys look up at me.
"one step forward and 3 steps back" i sang quietly. i looked up and saw karl smiling.
"karl you should come visit me" i said stopping what i was doing
"make luke visit you, he is closer" he said going back to minecraft
"what?" punz said
"i said you live closer to kay" karl repeated
"oh, yeah i'm 30 minutes out of the city"
"i am directly in the city" i said laughing as i pointed to the window behind me
luke nodded and went back to his game. i decided to play i different song and not worry about the other one.
