SOUR ; PUNZ

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luke and i spent the rest of the day cuddled up on the couch. when dinner time came around i ordered pizza because that sounded amazing to me

we ate together and enjoyed each other's company. after dinner he decided to go home because i wanted some time to myself and he needed to stream.

i decided to take a nap and then work on some music. harris had answered me and said he loved what i did.

i was in charge of finishing up the songs and he would finish the new one fully. meaning i would need to go in and record the song sooner rather than later

i changed into sweats and a t shirt before laying down next to lola. i was incredibly tired for no reason today.

i turned my phone on silent and finally closed my eyes. it felt good to just lay there and not worry about anything. except i was worried like no other

i didn't want to intrude on thanksgiving with anyone but i hate spending holidays alone. i was tired of my parents being assholes and me hurting from it

i opened my eyes again only to stare at my wall in pure anger and sadness

"fuck you" i said before turning the other direction.

i tossed and turned for an hour straight before finally sitting up and screaming into my pillow. i hate my parents

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and traitor was done an hour and half later. i was sitting in tears just working on the song. i was have an anger outburst because i hate my parents worth all i have in me

incoming facetime from luke <3

i groaned but answered just showing my ceiling. i put my head in my hands

"what do you want?" i asked and i saw he was taken back by my tone

"bad time? i can call you la-"

"i'm sorry. i'm just not having a good moment right now" i said setting my phone up before looking at my phone

"talk to me. what's going on?"

"just wish my parents were different. i hate holidays so much. i always go to karl's parents house for thanksgiving but i hate intruding so now i am just crying"

"wanna come to my parents? my mom wants to meet you" he said. i looked at him like he was crazy

"no way i am meeting your parents because my family is to insane to care about me"

"baby come on. they don't need to know that. i can just say that we saw your parents for lunch and we went there for dinner"

"i feel like you planned this out" i said cracking a smile. he smiled back at me

"maybe i did. maybe i didn't"

"i guess i will. MAYBE. i need to think about it. am i supposed to dress normal"

"baby stop stressing already" he said and i took in a deep breath.

"i finished traitor fully" i said and he smiled

"can i hear it?" he asked and i said yes before playing it for him

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i spent the day finishing songs and talking to luke about thanksgiving. i was incredibly nervous but also some what excited.

i sent traitor to harris to which he sent a picture back of him crying next to katie which caused me to laugh

"i love katie and harris together" i said and luke smiled as he played valorant

"i love us together" was all he said before looking over st me to catch me smiling

"you are so cliche it sickens me luke" i said putting a hand over my heart and leaning back into my chair

"you are dumb" he said rolling his eyes and laughing at me

"you know i am amazing" i said while standing up. "did you know i used to be a dancer?"

"did you know i used to play trumpet?"

i let out a wheeze thinking about him playing trumpet as a little kid. he just sat there smiling playing his game while i lost my mind over the news he told me

"please tell me you have pictures" i said looking at him which made him smirk

"oh baby i have pictures" he said picking up his phone to send me photos. i started cheering and he laughed