Fix Me

{20}

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It was 8:30 and I was still debating whether or not to do homework. I had pounds of homework to start with and one of them being math.

Ew math...

Good old procrastination.

I took my chances and picked up my packet with a pencil and my calculator to get started. That's when I realized that I couldn't write. Since I didn't have Jaz or Priya or even Landon over I decided to get help from Akil.

It was either get yelled at or maybe he'll be calm.

He's been having lots of mood swings lately. I guess I have a chance. I quietly walked into his room -which I've never been in before- and saw him sitting in front of his computer.

"Hey..." I said.

"What?" he asked.

"Are you free?"

"Why?"

"This isn't a Friday night invitation. Plus what's with you and the one word answers."

"You still haven't told me what you want."

"I need help with my homework." I plopped the sheets onto his desk.

"I don't have time."

"Wow! I know how to do it, I just need you to write down the answers!"

"Fine, make it quick then, I have business to be doing." he pointed to his computer. He pulled up another chair to his desk and I took a seat. We both looked at the first problem on the sheet and I put my mind to work.

"So like 6a^2bc plus 4ab^2c, let me put it into my calculator."

I took out my calculator and started to punch the numbers in as fast as I could but Akil was clearly impatient to wait for me.

"Just let me do it!" he hissed, grabbing everything from me. It took him like 5 minutes to complete the 30 questions in the packet without using my calculator. He was like a human math machine. This is crazy. "Here now leave me to be princess." he said annoyed.

"Thanks." I squeaked, grabbing all my stuff and leaving his room.

"Wait-"

"Yeah." I said poking my head through the doorway.

"Can I use that favor you still owe me."

"Sure, go ahead."

"Can I pick you up from college tomorrow?"

"Um sure?" I said doubtfully. For some reason my heart was fluttering at his words.

"My dad wants me to, it's fucking dumb."

I shot him a thumbs up sign and rushed straight into my room. He doesn't love me. He never will. So stop trying over something you'll never have. Stop being desperate for him.

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I heard the doorbell ring and so since L'shana isn't here and it didn't seem like Akil would come out of his room, I opened the door. To my surprise it was Mrs. Saxena.

"Can we talk dear?" she asked.

"Of course, come in." I replied with a smile.

"Oh no I can't come in..."

"Why not are you in a rush?"

"It's just that... Akil won't like it."