TURN BACK THE TIME, BABE. BOOK 4. SUNNY SKIES BREAK THROUGH BEHIND THE CLOUDS

I'M BLEEDING DEEP INSIDE

Well, that's one of the many differences between Killer and I and that's why I confided her the delicate task of discouraging Joe to leave Freddie willfully. I had confided that to her because she did it naturally, ruin people's lives.

I couldn't imagine she got pregnant from Freddie and I couldn't take it and ran out of there to nobody could see me cry. That's our difference. The level of involvement I had with Freddie had surpassed and I took that news uncomfortably as though someone had kicked my mouth.

- Eli! Wait! Wait for me!

Shit, Joe was crying out for me. I wiped away my tears fast and started my show.

- I'm sorry, Joe. Nobody could imagine that.

I couldn't imagine either and I had been extremely clumsy. I must not move from that sofa and show any emotion.

- Freddie is not satisfied cheating on me with that slut, he had to knock her up. This has to be a nightmare.

- Unfortunately it's not. He did it and you shouldn't let him hurt you anymore.

It was the right moment to play my part in that collaboration. Persuade him just now, before he would change his mind.

- I had hurt him so much too...

- Joe, did you cheat on him with a woman? Of course not.

- What a piece of shit. How could I ever think I was something important to this whimsical rock star? I was so naive. I believed every single word he told me.

- Freddie doesn't know what he wants, darling. You are so precious, you are a great man. You deserve someone who respects you.

- What am I going to do? I came here from the States to start over a new life with him.

- Do you want my advice? Run away from him. Cross the Atlantic. Come back to your family, your friends, your country. Get away from him. He just can bring you bad things.

It was funny. That was just precisely I was thinking about Joe to Freddie. Just bad things.

- I got no money to buy a ticket plane.

- Alright. I'm paying you the ticket.

- Didn't you tell me you don't make ends meet?

- And it's true, but I got a rich friend who owes me some favours. He will give me the money you need to fly your country.

- Would you do that for me?

I would do anything to avoid Freddie got infected, darling. Sometimes life was so cruel with the weakest and Joe was doubly the weakest right now.

- You have to think of yourself, Joe.

- He told me so many times he loved me that I end up believe him. How could he cheat on me with a woman and on top of that Nina? Couldn't he fall lower?

- Don't torture with those things. Freddie is someone very complex...

- Complex. He's a pure sex machine, how can you explain he could fuck that whore? I just puke thinking about it.

- If I were you, I'd put some miles between you and him. Come back where you belong. Your family will be able to make it up to you.

- Eli, you are one of the best people I've had the luck to meet.

- Don't say that, it's not true.

Am I a good person? I was managing his strings to make him vanish from his life. I was pushing him away his love and besides, he was in the beginning of such a serious disease that slowly but surely would manage to kill him. Good it was not the right adjective for me right now.