After being discharged from the hospital, I was loaded into the car with a positive bill of health and a weeks worth of prescriptions for pain medications. I may have appeared fine enough to no longer need constant monitoring but I didn't feel fine inside, far from it in fact. I haven't since that night because every time I think about it, I regret not being able to have done more to protect myself. The ride home was silent and a bit tense because I could tell that Phi was just trying to give me space. Even if it was tense, the silence was somewhat calming as I shut my eyes while leaning my head against the window; imagining myself somewhere far away from here.
"Sawyer?" I blinked and noticed that we were in front of our apartment building as I felt Phi put her hand on my thigh to bring me back to reality.
Sighing, I ran a hand through my hair, "Home sweet home."
"You've been staring into space since I drove back, you feeling okay?" Taking a deep breath, I exhaled and opened my car door, feeling the breeze of fresh air fanning my face.
"Yeah, I'm fine. I just want to get inside so I can take a nap in my own bed." Avoiding her gaze, I didn't want to see what was lurking in her hazel eyes as I grabbed my bag. I didn't wait for her as I went for the door of our apartment building, unlocking the door of our first floor apartment, I heard Phi's footsteps not far behind me.
"Want me to help you?" Stopping, I turn around to give her my best raised eyebrow.
"Help with climbing into bed? Thanks but I think I can handle it, I'll see you later." Kissing her cheek, I dragged my bag upstairs and into my bedroom. Throwing my bag in the corner, not caring where it landed, I exchanged my jeans and crop top for a pair of sweats and a t-shirt. Taking my clothes into my bathroom, I laid them on the sink before turning on the shower head and adjusting the temperature. Once it was to my liking, I turned on my music and undressed.
Stepping under the hot water, my muscles released their tension and I could finally relax while running my hands through my now wet hair. I could feel the knot in the back of my throat forming as I grabbed fist-fulls of my hair suddenly bursting into tears before my legs were no longer being able to support my weight. I tucked them under me as I now laid on the shower floor, hoping that the sounds of the water and my music were drowning out the sounds of my sobs. I cried for not being able to do anything more to help myself, I cried because I was worrying everyone but mostly because I was in pain.
After a few more sobs wracked my body, they started slowing down, I wiped my eyes the best I could before grabbing my shampoo to wash my hair, getting on with my shower. After I felt clean, I turned off the water and stepped out, grabbing a towel.
Drying myself off, I caught a glimpse of my reflection, I didn't look like the same carefree girl I was before as my eyes held exhaustion instead of that mischievous glint they once did. Turning away, I shuddered and grabbed my t-shirt and sweats before getting dressed and wrapped my hair in the towel. Humming along with the rhythm of the song, it was suddenly interrupted with a call from someone, picking up my phone, I noticed that it was my mom.
Rolling my eyes, I picked it up with a sigh,"Hey mom,"
"Hey sweetie! You okay? You sound tired."
"That's because I am, had a long couple of days this week." I said, turning off my bathroom light before going to lay on my bed.
"Want to talk about it? Did something happen?" Grabbing a pillow, I cuddled it as a sigh escaped my lips. "Sawyer, what happened?"
"Nothing huge, I swear. Some drunk guy attacked me and gave me a concussion, that's all." Talking about it like that, made it seem like it was no big deal when it was a very big deal.
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Creatures Of Habit
FanfictionSawyer has her whole life planned out. In a band with her best friend Phi, new love interest and just wants to have fun. But she can never shake the feeling like something is missing. Until an ex lover comes back into the picture. Can Sawyer figure...