Desire Of The Soul ...

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Karen ...

I got home as fast as i could , i was hurt sad emotional everything in the book .. but i had to control my feelings even though it's not good to hold everything in because you never know when you get to that point where you go off on everybody , but with everything going on right now i don't need to make the situation worse by bringing my personal problems to the table .

As i walk in the house i see Darius sitting on the couch drinking a glass of wine , he didn't bother to look at me so i knew something was up . i walk to the couch and sat next to him he looked stressed and i knew something was on his mind that was bothering him he was bad at hiding things .

"Hey babe , you okay ? you looked stressed wanna talk about it ?" i asked , he grabbed my hand and looked deeply into my eyes before speaking "Baby i don't want you to get mad at me or anything but my dad told me to pull up to his house , we talked and he wants to have a dinner with you to apologize i told him he could of apologized years ago but he threaten me about my business." i instantly felt my heart drop .. i wasn't ready to see Tyler again after all theses years i'm still traumatized.

"What did he threaten you with Darius ?." i say arching my eyebrow up, "He said if i don't set up the date my business will be in jeopardy ." i took a deep breathe and thought to myself was Darius putting his business before me ? "So the business matters more huh ?." i say "Of course not baby , don't think of it that way fuck that business your safety comes before all of that .. ion even wanna set up this shit ma , but you know how dangerous that man is shit i'm honestly scared cause ion wanna put you in no harms way , you mean so much to me and if he was to ever do something to you i wouldn't know what to do with my life anymore , you will forever come before that business." he spoke

I knew Darius cared about me a lot , i seen it in his eyes and i have never had that feeling before , i'm a very forgiving person but i don't think i can forgive Tyler , maybe 17 year old Karen would but this Karen won't , "Baby i believe you , i can tell your scared but we have each other i'll just go to the dinner with him you and dorinda can watch me and i'll have like a mic on so y'all can hear the whole conversation." i replied

"Ma , that's some smart ass shit damn i wouldn't even think about that . damn i must be that slow then ." We laughed at his comment "No baby your not slow i just be watching to much tv ." He kissed my lips and held onto me tightly "We gone figure this out ma i got you ." i stare into his eyes looking deep into his soul , i could tell everything he was telling me he wasn't lying i was just hoping to find some peace with him .

My phone ranged , i picked it up and it was Dorinda crazy self facetiming me .. Jacky has been very quiet ever since we went to go see Denise hopefully she ain't planning a mortal combat plan to kill Denise "Hey Sisterrr " i say in my baby voice "Hiii Sisterrr here you and Darius go smelling each other asses , get yall a room or something damn ." Me and Darius laughed , "Girl shush what you want ."

"I called to see how it went when you went back to the house , did you have flashbacks ? are you okay ?." i got quiet because i didn't tell Darius i went to the house .. i mean i was going to but i just didn't feel like talking about it after seeing Denise come to the house , "Uh Well I didn't tell Darius so i guess i'll tell both of y'all right now , but um Drew is out the hospital." they both gasped , "OH HELL NO ! HE SUPPOSED TO BE DEAD ." Dorinda yelled , Darius got up from the couch and headed to the bathroom .

"Dorinda be quiet that's not all when i went over there Drew was trying to push himself back onto me but he was interrupted by Denise walking into the house " Dorinda took a pause .. she always did that before she says something disrespectful or she about to kill somebody, Dorinda is way overprotective "You telling me This Bitch came back to Detroit to fuck up again ? that's it Karen i'm tired of playing nice bitch , it's over ." she hung up the phone before i could say anything back .

I knew she was about to stir some shit up , i went to check on Darius he opened the bathroom door and stared at me , "Why you ain't tell me you went back to your house , Drew could of did anything to you and i wouldn't of known cause you didn't tell me Karen ."

"I didn't say anything because when i seen Denise there all i wanted to do was break down and cry .. i didn't wanna come home and talk about it right after seeing her there . i wasn't gonna hide it from you Darius ." i say as i begin to get emotional , he hugged me tightly and kissed my forehead "I'm sorry ma , i just don't like that sneaky shit and i ain't mean to go off on you like that." he says

We heard a loud bang on the door , i ran to the door to see who it was . Of course it was Dorinda and Jacky "Open THE FUCK UP BITCHES !" she yelled , i opened the door and pulled them inside quickly . "now why are y'all acting a fool outside the door our neighbors gone be looking at us crazy ." i say "oh girl fuck them boujee ass white people ." Dorinda responds " Right , they don't give a damn about you ." Jacky adds on

"What y'all here for anyways ." i say rolling my eyes , " Well excuse me miss goodie two shoes , i told Jacky about the situation we gone get this bitch Denise today Karen , i'm sick of playing nice sister you still ain't get this bitch back after 33 years you should of been smacked that hoe to Arizona and then you should of beat Drew till he couldn't speak anymore ." Dorinda shouts

"Look Dorinda it ain't that easy to just take out yo sister alright ? don't be jumping all up on me about something that happened years ago ." I shout back
"Shiii, it's easy for me so it'll be easy for you and if it happened years ago Karen why you still hurt about it ? so don't pull that years ago shit with us , we know you still hurt and we trying to help you but you not letting us ." She says

"ALRIGHT FUCK IT , Do what you want i don't give a damn anymore ." i say as i storm into the Kitchen to grab a bottle of water , "Karen calm down we just trying to be there for you we know this can be hard with everything going on theses pass few months but that's what sisters are for i know Dorinda can be harsh sometimes but it's just tough love we love you ." Jacky says

"I know y'all just trying to be there for me since Denise wasn't , i appreciate it a lot i just don't want Dorinda to go to jail ." i replied "Shit i'll rather go to jail then see that bitch again ." We all laughed , "Well Karen what you wanna do ? we need a plan or something ." Jacky says

"Well that's for detective Dorinda to figure out ." i say "Well , Karen you can go to the house with Darius and Jacky to see if Drew is still there and fuck him up , Karen take all of your anger out on him i'll go to the house and see if Denise is there i'll tie her up and beat her so badly until she tells me why she did all of this to Karen ." Dorinda says

"See , this girl always got some Lara Croft ass shit under her sleeve ." I say giggling "Well i am thee grace ." Dorinda adds , "Well i guess we can do that even though i'm not sure about it it will be good to get all my anger out ." i say

"Yes you need to before you be going dick crazy ." Jacky says , we laughed "Well i'll head over to Denise tonight , y'all can go tonight to if y'all want i just got some business i need to take care of ." Dorinda says we all agreed and Dorinda walked out the house , me Jacky and Darius sat there thinking about what we were gonna do .. "Ma you should go in there first and see what he up to, i got some walkie talkies we can use just in case you need backup me and Jacky will sit in the car while you do what you need to do ."

"Okay that's fine with me i guess ." i say "if you aren't sure we don't have to do this bae ." He says
"No i wanna do it let's head out ." we all walk out the house into the car and we headed to the house , as we got closer i start to get this feeling in my body i felt like i was ready , i was ready to let my anger out i was ready to say how i truly felt without caring what nobody thinks , it felt like a new Karen was starting to come .

"Alright ma , we here take this walkie talkie with you , if you need help just yell through the walkie talkie ight ?." Darius says kissing me "Yea babe " i get out the car and head into the house i could see through the windows that Drew was in the kitchen , I had a gun in my back pocket just in case , i walk inside the house and Drew face blew up . "Karen baby."

"Don't say shit to me mother fucker ."