Chase Your Dreams | Hyunjae x Chanhee

Chapter 13

Song Reccomendation: Little Star by Standing Egg

Author's POV

After Chanhee was left alone he had broken down. So many questions in his head. Why? Why now of all the time? And then the question of what he should do now follows. He was sitting on the ground, the envelop Kyungsoo handed him claiming it was his grandfather's last message laid on the floor in front of him. He grabbed it and opened it up taking out the letter inside and unfolded it.

"If you are reading then I am sure I am no longer alive. Choi Chanhee, my grandson. I am so sorry for not being able to give you the love of a grandfather. I was stupid, stubborn and egoistic but I regretted it so much. Your father, my only son, he was my everything. A gift. A blessing and I wanted the best for him. But I made mistakes. I turned blind towards his desires. I didn't realized what I wanted for him was something he didn't wanted. I wanted him to get married to a woman of a high class family but your father ended up marrying mother. I was so blind to not see his love for your mother. When I didn't accepted the relationship between him and your mother, it turned out to be my biggest mistake. Your father packed up and left me. I was stupid. I could have stopped him. But my ego, my stubbornness didn't let me. I regretted not stopping him.

After that I was not in touch with him. After a year a gift came to me from your father. That day was the happiest day even when I didn't admitted it. The gift was you. The gift I received that day was the news of me being a grandfather. I was so happy. There were photos of you and you were so beautiful. So innocent with little eyes that gleamed filled with love and hope.

I felt so sorry. I failed you as a grandfather. But trust me when I say I looked after you. Even if it was from far. I didn't had the courage to call you my grandson that time. I felt so guilty for pushing your parents away and that guilt made me stay away from you. I didn't deserved an angel like you. I am so sorry Chanhee, my little angel. I hope you can forgive your grandpa. I am sorry for not being there. With the hope that you will forgive me I am leaving my everything to you.

Do whatever you want to do with it. I know I don't have any right to make decisions for you but I wish the best for your life. I regret pushing away your parents and I want to make up for it by accepting what ever you wish to do. All I want is for you to be happy with whatever and whoever makes you happy.

- Your grandpa, JinHyuk

Chanhee shakes as a sobs escapes for him. As much as he hated his grandfather for not taking up some courage to approach him or his parents, he also felt bad for his grandfather. He must have felt so lonely. The thought made his heart squeeze painfully. He sniffs as he wipes off his tears. He puts the letter back inside the envelop and puts it in a drawer safely.

He goes back to his bedroom. First he leaves Hyunjae a text telling him to be careful when he drives and to have a nice day. He missed the older already. He crawls back to his bed feeling emotionally tired. Hoping sleeping will take some of his pain away.

Meanwhile~

On the other hand Hyunjae had met his father. And his father had managed to rile him up in all the bad ways. His father had obviously found out a lot about Chanhee. It scared him. He knew his father and the things he would do. He feared for the younger. His father had left him with a warning telling him to leave Chanhee and settle down with someone of their status or else the younger was going to have some tough things to deal with.