Midnight Garden of Words

| healthy |

I stepped foot on the weight scale this week
I can't say I was too surprised with the number
but for some reason I was
after eating everything I love
going through cramps
at ungodly hours of the night
and regretting eat this and that
I was expecting to lose a little weight.
After all
I work out almost everyday
treadmill or evening walks
they still count.
Seems like that little weight loss I had
over six months ago
meant nothing
but at that time it meant something to me
and it's why I'm going to try again
and be a healthier version of myself.
It's not because I feel uncomfortable in my skin
although I do sometimes
I simply want balance.
I'm curvy alright
and I like it
but I want my curves hitting the right spots.
I want to love being curvy
I want to be able to wear everything
I want to feel pretty and healthy
I want to give my body the nourishing it needs
and from now on
I will.