In your arms

Chapter 6: 8 days to go

Riley's POV:

the sound of vibrating wakes me up as a message popped up on my phone. I groan as I move out of James grip to reach over and read the message. I already know what it most likely is so the sooner I can swipe away the notification the better, I can't risk letting James see, I turn on my phone and glance at the message notification on my Lock Screen.

Alfie: 8 days to go princess😙 then it can be like yesterday everyday.

As I read it a feel James move slightly causing my to jump and swipe away the notification as quickly as possible before he sees it. I think my sudden jolt woke him up.
"Hey babe, what's up?" His ruff morning voice asks as he sits up to he's propped up on his pillow.
"Nothing you just scared me a little" I try force a laugh and nudge his arm playfully. I put the phone on the table then put my head on his chest while he plays with my hair.
"Ok, I just don't want you getting jumpy with everyone because of yesterday" he sighs making me shiver at the thought. He moves his hand to rub my back causing me to close my eyes as we lay there enjoying each others company. After laying down for a short while he then moves his hand so it's on top of my arm and I jump slightly which then lead to James looking down with a sympathetic look on his face.
"Are you sure your ok?" He says worriedly as he moves his hand away from my arm and back to playing with my hair.
"I'm fine" I sigh looking up at him.
"Ok well we should probably grab breakfast" he says placing a kiss on my forehead. His lips tickle my skin.
He starts to move and get up off the bed until I grab hold of his hand pulling him back down. He chuckles as I pull him over until he's on top of me with our noses just about touching.
"What was that for" we stare at each other as he waits for my response.
I soon get lost in his eyes, it's so easy to, they pull me in and I soon find my mind running in circles and butterflies flying around my stomach, it's like the first time we danced together on our first date. Butterflies carried me away on there little wings and I then was left with a tingling feeling after sharing our first kiss and I still get that now, the fact that I can find a home in someone's arms, no way I'd ever be able to put this into actual words to tell him even if I tried. The feeling is unexplainable but knowing that I only have a short time limit I'm also filled with loads of other emotions knowing that this will soon be gone.
"Babe? What was that for" he asks again waking me up from my day dream. I lean my forehead against his and a noses touch I wrap my arms around his neck looking him in the eyes. I can't tell him the real reason why yet but before I think of a reasonable reply my mind switches off letting the words fly out my mouth.
"I love you.." I say closing my eyes while our foreheads are still resting on each others. I don't want this moment to end.
"I love you to" his ruff morning voice makes the butterflies inside flutter around like crazy and I sense myself blushing quite a bit as my face starts to feel warm. I feel his arms wrap around my neck and he moves his forehead so I lay back down a few inches so my head on the pillow. My heart skips a beat as I feel his lips touching my neck softly as he places kisses and makes his way to my cheek. He closes the gap between us and looks at me making every uncomfortable awkward feeling fade away. He then connects our lips and at first I cup his face with my hands kissing him back until my mind switches back on causing me to panic. I jump suddenly as the cold feeling returned and my mind took me back to the time in the office. I felt the metal on my head and the cold touch on my arms. The warm tears started to fall after trying to stop them. Suddenly I feel James lips move away and he lifts himself up off me. The cold touch goes away but my tears still roll down my eyes no matter how hard I try to stop them. I open my eyes to see him sat sideways with his legs dangling off the side. He's fiddling with his fingers looking down at the floor.
"I'm sorry" I sigh wiping the tears from my cheeks. I lift up my knees and wrapping my arms around curling myself into a ball. I still felt the tears spilling but I think it's from the thought of ruining the moment as well.
"No its ok... I just gotta go do something" he sighs with a pause as he gets up and walks to his closet. He reaches for a T shirt and jeans before walking out the room, i soon hear the door to the extra bathroom close.
I lay my head down on my knees and immediately feel guilt consume me. This is all my fault. He's probably mad at me now and I don't know what to do. I heard the door to the bathroom open and light footsteps walk down the stairs and out of the door. Yep he's mad at me. I curl up and cry letting my tears pour out onto my pyjama trousers. What have I done?