In your arms

Chapter 20: hope

Riley's POV:

I slowly get up off the floor while wincing at the pain. I've just regained strength to stand after passing out. As soon as I look down at myself I can see my legs bruised and my arms are red. I slowly move over to the bed and sit down. I heard someone call Alfies name vaguely so I'm alone up here for now. I don't know if I'm going to have to go through that again when he gets back or if he's finished taking letting out his anger.

I hear mumbling echoing around the building until I soon hear footsteps walking up to the room. I try stand up but fail so I use my arms to support me by holding the end of the bed.

"Great you up" I hear a voice say while entering the room. If I could I probably would of tried to say something but I barely have enough energy to stand, let alone speck. Also my morning sickness isn't helping by making me so dizzy all of the time. "I was on the phone and got a appointment booked for you to get your dress designed" his voice is blank and he just moves to sit on the bed. I'm still stood at the end but I was able to push myself up so I'm stood up a little straighter. I just nod to his comments.

"So I need those bruises covered, you hear me?" He points to my legs and again I just nod. He seems to be irritated by my lack of response. "I said do you hear me!" He shouts causing me to jump slightly. "Yes..." I struggle to fight anymore so I try walk off into the bathroom while using the wall as support. And I'm just about to walk through the door before I hear the same voice again

"Where are you going?" He stars at his phone while typing some sort of message. I pause while I collect up the words to form a sentence. "I'm just going to run a bath.." I sigh. He turns to look at me before getting up and walking over. "You can have one later" he smirks causing my anxieties to build up inside as I tense up. I spoke to soon, he's not done.

He stops as soon as our noises are practically touching and I feel tears starting to build up. I'm leaning against the wall still not being able to support myself properly. He moves his hands so their pinning mine down. Of course he would do this the one time I can't defend myself.

"Don't think your getting off the hook that easily princess" he whispers before pushing his lips against mine. I squeeze my eyes shut trying not to let the tears escape and purse my lips together. I don't have to power to move as my body feels numb but my minds going crazy telling me to move. He pulls away as I hold my lips shut the best I can. But as he realises how weak I am he pushes them back against mine and moves one hand to the very top of my thigh causing me to jump slightly which also means loosen the grip between my lips.

He deepens the kiss and I then get pulled back to that day in the office. While James was watching over the dancers, Alfie did the exact same thing. But I wasn't alone. James was there to help me, unlike now where I'm helpless and alone. I was able to feel the safety of his arms, which I dearly miss, and the comforting energy he gives off when he smiles. But no matter how much I think about him it just makes me miss him more. It only draws more emotions, but I can't help it, I can't not think about him. The memories are the only thing that are keeping me here, if I never told James where I was or I just broke up with him I wouldn't be able to live with myself, at least with the thought of him knowing I never wanted this is giving me some form of hope. Because maybe one day he'll show up at the door and I'll be home again. But until that day I just have to deal with the pain, and just tell my self that it's for him.

I soon get snapped out of my thoughts as I get thrown onto the bed. Wincing at the pain, I can feel him kissing down my body while taking off my clothes. No surprised that he would take the opportunity. The screams inside tell me to move away and shout but I can't, the pains to strong that I can barely talk. I'm trapped.