In your arms

Chapter 13: changes

Riley's POV:

I spend the whole drive to the airport in complete tears, I was even asked in traffic by a few other drivers if I was ok. This feeling is like nothing I've ever felt before. I've been betrayed by my sister and kicked out of my friend group. I saw my boyfriend kiss another girl and dealt with the problem alone for weeks. I've made friends with my Enemy and watch it turn out to be a lie, while it caused arguments with my boyfriend. And I've struggled with many anxiety attacks. But nothing feels like this. This sense of loneliness and fear is indescribable.

The moment I step in through the doors in front of me my life's gonna change, as if it's even my life anymore, I was hoping that if I shock my head I would wake up in my own home, in my own bed with the only boy I want by my side. But all I was hit with was a head ache and a pain in my chest. Guess I'm not dreaming. This is real and I can't turn back. Not now.

I stand outside for a while to try push away the pain before glancing at 'my' watch (air quotes because it's technically James but he gave it to me thinking I didn't know that his mum gave it to him for his birthday). And see that it's 10:52, shit, as if this day couldn't get more worse. I sigh before walking in and looking around to see if I can see anyone. It's quite late so the waiting room so it was very easy to see a clearly unhappy boy walk towards me. I curse under my breath before forcing a smile.

"Where have you been!?" He try's to shout but realises were in a public airport and quietens down a little more, god I've never been more grateful, but you can clearly hear the anger in his voice. "Sorry I don't run how slow traffic goes" I shrug calmly as I see people walk past us with a baby in there arms. I try my best to act calm but inside I'm screaming, no way he's gonna let me off for good, just because he's whispering now doesn't mean he won't completely flip out at me later on. And with his track record god knows what he'll do.

"The planes about to leave come on princess" I sigh before grabbing my arm as he guides me through the airport. His sudden touch makes me jump slightly as does when he tightens it causing that part of my skin to grow pale. This isn't gonna be fun, far from fun actually, absolutely petrifying.

Sitting on his private jet I'm thinking over so many things. My thoughts race around like it's some sort of Grand Prix race. I'm sat on a red velvet sofa with Alfie sat next to me. He's yelling at me pretty loudly and I'm surprised that the flight attendant hasn't heard, although if they did I doubt they'd do anything, and it's so tempting to open the door and jump out. No parachute no nothing.

"I told you 10! And then I give you an extra 30-45 minutes and you still chose to be late! HEY look at me when I'm talking to you!" I have no energy left to even try and fight back so I drift off into my own world while staring out at the clouds. I see the occasional airplane fly by and I think about what trips the people are going to, maybe there flying to an exotic beach or maybe going to some sort of holiday park with there kids, maybe even some form of big theme park like Disney land. I was completely ok in my own world until I feel a slap across my arm causing me to wince in pain.

"Oww" I cry out while turning around to see Alfie as red as a tomato. Why do I feel like a slap is the least of my worries. "Listen to me! God, I'm surprised you actually had a boyfriend for 4 years" he lets out a mocking laugh before continuing "you've been with me like what? 1 hour and I'm already losing faith in you, I don't know how he coped".

I was trying so hard to push him to the back of my mind until those words fell out of his mouth. If he's losing faith why not send me home. And James never focused on the small flaws I have he would always tell me that 'flaws are what makes a person special' every time I felt insecure he would complement whatever it was and it was clear as daylight that he wasn't kidding. And Alfie knows that I never wanted to come live with him. Even though I don't think I'll ever quite get why me out of everyone else.

"And you could've worn something more presentable" he sighs while looking straight and leaning back on the sofa. I look at him but he doesn't catch my gaze until I reply without thinking.

"I can wear what I want thanks. And second if you don't like how I dress them why choose me out of everyone else" I say quite coldly but after realising it I soon moved over further away from him while I wait for his reaction. Which of course isn't a great one.

"Oh great and you talk back to! Seriously. And I choose you because your pretty, pretty much it but I didn't realise you had so many obvious flaws" he rolls his eyes and I try so hard not to scream at him. For gods sakes he took me away from everything and everyone I care about just to assault and abuse me. Now the temptation is even more unbearable to jump out of the door but I was able to compress it down deep in my chest knowing that if I flip out i will end up worse.

The rest of the flight was silent and I'm was so grateful for that, I don't need someone pointing everything wrong about me out, but as soon as we got back to Switzerland the accusations kept coming. I hung my head while we walked out and into a limo before driving off. I slightly took in what he was saying but tried my best to ignore it while drowning in my own thoughts.

Everyone has flaws, no matter who you are everyone has something the point out as a flaw, but like James says 'Flaws are what make you you' and without them everyone would be the same and in a society where everyone walks and talks and looks the same would be extremely boring. Flaws are what make you unique and what others fall in love with. For example my flaws are my anxiety, my height as well as how quickly I am to forgive and forget and how careless I am (according to James) and there a few reasons he fell for me, along with many more in his eyes, and that's why I fell for him. How open and calm he is, he's willing to sit with me for hours and not say a word until my emotions are out of my system, and the fact that he is so bold towards trying out new things that may end in an injury. But that's where the missing piece of our puzzle is. He pushes me to try let loose and try new things and I try to pull him back down to reality just a little before he gets himself in hospital. We compliment each other's strengths and weaknesses as well as create new ones together. But I can already tell that Alfie is nothing like that. He points out peoples flaws as if there a bad thing and either use them against them or joke about them. Which can bring out the worse in people leading to even worse consequences such as; them bullying others, caving themselves in, compressing feelings, depression or if things get to bad it could lead to them shortening there own life because they don't fit 'today's society'.

Sorry these chapters have been small they probably won't all be but i want to know if you guys prefer longer or shorter chapters :) just so I know which to do more off.