𝐔𝐧𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐅𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲

Chapter • 34 - One Step at a Time

Two weeks later

It's my turn to go up.

I lay my flowers down at her grave and tears well up in my eyes as I say my goodbye.

I feel a pair of hands on my shoulder and I look back to see all four of my brothers standing behind me looking down at her grave too.

Our whole family is here. People I haven't met, people I have, it's amazing how big our family really is.

Just not great circumstances on why we had to meet like this.

I look to the side and sigh. I see his grave with nothing. Nobody here to visit him, no family, no friends.

I walk over to his grave and put down a rose. I kneel down in front of it and smile softly.

Thinking about all the good moments we had... trying to think of the good things instead of the bad. I think a part of me will always love him but the hate is just as equal.

"I wish it didn't have to turn out this way." I whisper to him. Looking one last time at his stone before I get up patting myself down.

I walk back over to granny's and kneel down in front of hers as I read off the stone and its carved words.

It was a beautiful service. Everything I had hoped for it to be. Though you don't ever expect how hard it's going to hit you when it starts.

All those nice things people had to say about her, all those memories she shared with each one of them, the stories, it's all so hard.

"Hey granny. I miss you! You should've seen me the other day, I tried that milkshake you recommended and it was amazing." I sniffle and chuckle. Silence overtakes me as I take in the heaviness of everything once again.

"I miss you so much." I whisper, my voice hoarse. My throat feels like it's closing and I feel like I'm suffocating from all the pain I'm having.

It shouldn't have been like this, it wasn't supposed to end like this.

"I wish so so much you were still here. But you're right. It'll be okay, besides, that was the last thing you said to me. But it's hard to be okay without you." I hiccup, rubbing my eyes.

"But hey, I'll be okay, just not the okay I used to be."

I rub my fingers along the dirt beneath me and I see a water drop fall onto my fingers. It's raining.

I look up and water falls onto my face, dripping off the sides and coolness flowing on me.

I open my eyes and look back down, my hair sticking to my face and my clothes start to get soaked.

"Just wanted to let you know that you don't have to worry about us. I hope you're in peace now. I hope dad is there with you. Tell him I said hi for me will ya?" I whisper to her as I send a kiss to her with two fingers.

I wipe my eyes one last time and get up patting myself down again. The rain hitting against my raw skin and the stone in front of me.

I take one last glance at it. At granny.

This is it. It's over.

Then I turn around walking away...my brothers following behind and not leaving my side one bit.

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•A month after the funeral•

We're at a family gathering. Its something James put up so we could all have fun and so I could meet more family members.

"Heya little cuz. Tell Liam here that he cannot beat me at monopoly!" Dean laughs while patting me on the shoulder. Liam rolls his eyes.

I raise my hands up.