Kinetic Frequencies |The Flash|

|IV|

Julia shuts the door to her room gently behind her, and she leaned her head against the door, feeling tears all threatening to spill back down her cheeks again.

"I should have kept my guard up." It was a quiet whisper, but there was too much pain in it, for her liking.

Julia walked over to her bed and she climbed under the covers, as she was feeling horrible, all of a sudden. Julia picked up a picture off of her bedside table and it was her and Hartley, after their first anniversary.

Julia felt tears falling as she wiped some of the dust away from the frame and off of the glass, as she looked at it.

They had just been on a cruise for three weeks, paid for by Hartley and they both looked exhilarated by their experience.

"I have to stop. He's gay and there is nothing, that I can do to convince him of anything else. That time? It was all long done. It has come and gone." She murmured to herself and she looked at the picture again, and memories of their time together they began to now surge through her mind.

"So, where are we going today Mr. Hathaway?" Julia joked as Hartley laughed, his hand slipping into hers like it was the most natural thing in the whole world.

"Very funny, Jules. Come on." Hartley said and Julia followed him into Jitters, where it had been closed completely and had been redecorated completely.

"Hartley..." Julia was stunned speechless now, as she was looking around at a coffee shop that had been redecorated for her birthday. "Thank you." She finally managed to say something and Hartley grins brightly at her.

"Only the best for my girl." He murmured and she hugged him, as she was grinning at the decorations all around them and Hartley smiled a bit.

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Julia was ruffling and messing up Hartley's already windswept hair, as they were walking off of the cruise ship that they had just been on for the last three weeks. "That was amazing, Hart, I can't thank you enough for it." She'd say and Hartley laughed, as he slipped his hand into hers.

"You don't ever have to thank me and you do know it. Somewhere, in that both brilliant and beautiful mind, you know it." Hartley said and briefly pressed his lips to hers, before a horn honked.

"That would be Kate." Julia muttered as Hartley stepped back, still holding her hand in his, as he looked around.

"Yes, that would be. I'll see you later, though?" Hartley asked and Julia nodded, pecking him on the cheek one more time, before she bolts over to Kate's car.

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"Are you absolutely sure, that you want me to be at the dinner when you tell your parents?" Julia asked as at the mere mention of the dinner, Hartley, he looked like he was going to throw up.

"Jules, please. You know that I would not ever ask you for this, if I didn't feel like I absolutely needed you there, as emotional support. A friend." Hartley didn't seem to notice, Julia's reaction to being called a friend but he didn't seem to notice.

"All right, I'll be there." Julia relented and Hartley grinned at her as he threw one of his arms around her shoulders.

Julia looked at her headphones that were on the bedside table and as she was trying to keep everybody else out of her head at the moment, she slips a pair of headphones on, plugged it into her phone, and turned up the music.

Julia stared up at the ceiling for quite a bit of time, thinking, about all of the memories, that she was now fighting so hard to ignore, that flat-out refused to leave her alone.

She heard footsteps coming off of the stairs and she shut her eyes and she'd roll onto her side, facing away from a person that would only hurt her to be looking at, at the moment.

Hartley gently opened the door after knocking and he sighed. "I know that you're awake." He said as Julia was at least attemptin', to keep up her facade of being quietly asleep. "Look, I'm real sorry that I never realized, okay?" He tried and Julia clenched the picture to her chest, even tighter than before. "I guess I'll just leave you alone, then." It sounded like Hartley was upset to, but it was notoriously hard to tell with his constant expression of annoyance on his face.