A Spoon Of Suga

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I'm ready after preparing for it for so long.

It took me three whole days to practice and recite my poem on stage.

After all, I didn't want to read it from the notebook I had. If I was going to do open mic, then I should memorize and rehearse.

If my Suga cat doesn't have a problem with me spending time on my work as he's getting busy with his work.

I did some research and realized that sly Oppa of mine hid the fact that he was an idol much less apart of BTS. I guess we were so into each other that he didn't even tell me off the bat.

Which means that each time we had left to meet each other, our time together will be shorter. Even during the pandemic, when there's no activity for them, Yoongi told me (once I found out of course) "I've still gotta work. My members are working hard too. ARMY is honestly the best companion I've had. They have been there for me and my brothers since our debut."

I felt at ease then but he kept going "But that doesn't mean you're any less important to me. You're my secret companion. I've got to do my best to protect you, even if it means hiding our relationship from the world and I'm sorry for doing things this way. I really am a coward." 

"Hey don't say that!" I replied back. 

"But it's true. I am one. I can't even properly court you anywhere. I'm afraid of what will happen once I do. I'm afraid of losing you." 

"Babe... I won't go anywhere. I'll stay right at home. Come over whenever you feel like it okay?" I cheer him up but he only smiles slightly. "Okay. But I feel like it would be better if you stay with me. Don't you think?" 

"Nope. Mr. Min, if we're going to playing hide-and-seek with the public, then we should do our part to play it well." 

"Such a rulebook you are." He teased but I was quite relentless. 

"Hey your set condition not mine." 

"Then will you break it? I must be the idiotic rulebook to place such ridiculous conditions upon you like that." 

"Hmmm... I'll consider your offer carefully Mr. Min." I seductively whisper into his ear and he just pulled me closer to tickle me all over. "AAAAHHAHA!" I screamed wildly but he never relented. "Mr. Min huh?" He ticked and kept poking at my sensitive skin without a care about whether I'll be able to breath again. "Mr. Min?" 

"Okay. Ok-ay Oppa I-I'm so-sorry. I'm sorry." I say out of breath to which he stopped and sat down on the couch to then pull me on top of him to rest on his chest.  

I still miss him though. And I do wish that he'll show up someday.  

Right now, I'm standing in front of the Incheon Night Club. The one that Min Suga told me about. And I still have no idea how he knew about this... I guess there's somethings I can't explain. 

I still wished he was around when I'm dealing with stage fright. I'm nervous even though I've practiced and memorized the words... I still feel mute under pressure... 

My thoughts as deep and uncertain as the sea that I drown under, my head not able to break the surface to free myself and breath with ease. 

But I still stepped in. I've done it and if I'm not perfect on stage... then so be it. 

"Good evening everyone!" The crowd cheered the MC who also hyped up the crowd with raising his hands up. "So everyone we've got to the highlight of the club. We're going to have an open mic where people will start performing in just a moment as for now, please listen to our DJ DDS (A/N: actual YT channel I go the song above from, so please check them out if you like their work)  of this BTS "So What? and Run". Enjoy."'