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🤎veintisiete🤎

When I got to the room tenly and brazy was sitting on the couch watching tv

"hi fairy" tenly smiled big and waved at me

"hey baby" i replied low while sitting everything on the counter

i could feel myself breaking a sweat as my side hurt really bad from all the weight i'd put on it

"tia i apologize baby im sorry forreal" i heard brazy say

"why you apologizing brazy? is it cuz you made her get stabbed?" tenly asked

"ten you gotta stay in a kids place buddy" i mumbled as i pulled his food out for him

"oh..sorry" 

i thought brazy would never put his hands on me yet he did so i figured he'd hit my baby cousin and i didnt want that

"come and eat baby" i told him and he climbed down running over to me

i struggled to pick him up then sat him in the chair before getting brazy's food

"here you go" i said very low as i handed him his food avoiding all eye contact with him

"bae im sorry forreal..fa all of it ma im so sorry" he grabbed my arm

he was squeezing really tight making me look at my arm trying to hide my pain

"it's okay" i said in a strained voice 

he kept looking me in my eyes but let me go 

i still didnt look him in his and got up kinda massaging my arm

i went to the restroom and closed the door then leaned on it looking up at the ceiling while tears built up

I started the shower then stood in front of the mirror and cried

"How did I get here?"

I was waiting for my gg to reply

She didn't

I looked around and didnt see her so I cried all over again as I stripped

I carefully pulled the bandage off while wincing

Once it was off I put it in the trash then got in the shower

I sat on the floor with my knees up to my chest right up under the water and cried

I didnt care about anything anymore

Fuck my hair, my wound, shit fuck living too

I wanna just die

My gg's gone, my boyfriend hit me, he cheated right when I decided I loved him, my mom hates me, the only time I feel like myself is when I'm drunk, or high and it's draining

"I just wanna die" I mumbled while crying

I heard a small knock at the door

"Come in" I announced and wiped my face

When the door opened and I seen brazy I turned around and layed my head on my knees

"I'll be back" he said in a low voice

"Okay" I accidentally sniffled

"What's wrong?" His tone changed

"Nothing im fine" I wiped my hair out of my face

"I dont want you here right now anyways" i said low but instantly regretted it fearing he'd hit me

"Tia what's wrong?" I felt the door open and a rush of cold air