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🤎treinta y cuatro🤎

"Brazy they need all the pallbearers" ducks nephew ran up and told brazy

"You can go to the car if you want" he gave me the keys

"Okay" I took them then walked outside the funeral home

His car was in the funeral line like the second car in there so I started it then got back out as they carried his casket out

His sister and other family members was crying and I choked up too

"He's really gone" I mumbled and wiped my tear

I walked over to his sister

"I know you don't wanna hear it but I'm truly sorry and if you need anything at all, a babysitter or anything, call me forreal" I told her

"Okay thank you" she sniffled and wiped her nose

I gave her a hug then walked over to brazy

"You ready?" His voice cracked

"Yeah" I took his hand in mine and we walked to the car

When we got in he layed his head back with his eyes closed

I didnt say anything I just let him feel

He opened his eyes and looked at me then pulled out a bag of weed

"Here roll up" he handed it to me

I took the bag and did as he said then handed the blunt to him

He sparked and I just leaned on the door looking out the window

"you aint smoking?" he asked making me look at him

"it's too early to be smoking" i shook my head

he licked his lips and sat back staring straight ahead

"tia"

i looked at him again

"i love you so much you hear me?" he looked at me

"i love you too bestfriend" i smiled

he put his hand on my face caressing my cheek with his thumb

"ya gg passed away you wanna talk about that?" he asked before taking another pull from his blunt

i shook my head and closed my eyes

i heard some movement before he hugged me

"you seen me cry about this shit. it hurts tia. duck was my bestfriend and now he's gone" he said

i opened my eyes and turned my head looking at his cheek

"i know you know how it feels to know you cant ask the person any questions, talk to the person, or even be in their presence...it's hard t you gotta talk about it" he said and i closed my eyes

"duck was so nice to me....from the very first time i met him he always treated me with respect i'll miss him...my gg hit me harder than anything in this world could but i just cant talk about it...its not that i dont want to because i do bu-" somebody knocked at the window making me stop talking

he sat up and rolled it down

"they gon leave soon i was just making sure you was in here" a teenager said

"tell tootie ha car leaking oil" brazy told the boy and he nodded then walked away

"im sorry you can keep talking" he said as he rolled his window up

"it's okay today is about duck which means it's about you so tell me how you're feeling" i sat my hand on his leg rubbing slowly

"i already told you" he chuckled and looked down