An Angel got me Suffocating ~Kellic~

Chapter 10

A/N: Ok usually I do these at the end but yeah. As my Jalex is nearing it's end, I have my next fic idea, but I want your opinion on if it should be either Flykarth or Cashby!

Kellin's POV
I couldn't believe it, in that moment my whole world came crashing down. That's all it took, one small moment. My world had crashed down many times before, but this was worse, this was so much worse. Vic spent all that time, making me believe that he would be the one to never let me down, never hurt me, never be like the other people in my life. He made me so happy, he fought away my demons and for once I felt like I could've rid of them and had the life I wanted. He made me feel like I could depend on him. He made me believe that he wasn't just my partner, but my best friend too. He made me believe that for once I could have something real in my life, something to make everything I've been through worth all the pain I've suffered. He gave me hope, for the first time in forever, he made me believe and then he tore it all down in seconds.

He sat there sobbing his heart out, trying to explain, trying to justify his actions, but...I couldn't do it. It was so hard to tell him to leave and walk away, but he hurt me so badly. He tried to tell me his friends had drugged him, that he had no idea what he was doing, that he was out of it, but I just couldn't find it in myself to believe him. Who would seriously drug their friend in hopes that it would brake them up? If it was true, which I doubted, what kind of a person does that to someone anyway? Just because they don't agree with relationships...who could be so cruel? Well, actually, in my life I'd met a few people capable, but, I just refused to believe it.

It's been a week, and all Vic has done is tried to call and text, he even showed up at my door, but that was a bad idea. Lydia had been here, and like I'd said before, she's the sweetest soul, but you don't want to get on her bad side. She totally flipped at Vic, calling him every name she could think of under the sun, which, given she didn't often swear, or insult, left me a bit astounded. Maude had answered one of the phone calls, again giving him the same treatment and Lydia did, telling him to stay away from me.

I wanted him to stay away, but at the same time, living without him...I felt like I couldn't. I wanted to believe him, I wanted to forgive him, I wanted things to go back to how they where, but they couldn't. He hurt me. He cheated on me. Some may say 'it was just a drunk kiss, if you both try you can work through it', but to me it was more then that. So many people had hurt me in the past, I no longer trusted people, aside the two girls and my grandparents, but Vic...he made me trust him. He was the first person in forever that I trusted with anything, and he tore it all down. He wrapped his angel hands around my throat and began sufforcating me. I was stuck, wedged between a rock and a hard place. If I forgave him, I would only carry on sufforcating, remembering that his lips had been on another, the thought plaguing me forever, I'd never be able to trust him again, and what's a relationship without trust? But without him, I still sufforcated, without him I felt as if I couldn't breath. He was an angel that got me sufforcating, it was the only way I could put it, other then calling him a devil in disguise.

I couldn't even get up to go to work, I'd called in sick with the flu, thankfully my boss was kind and told me to stay home and rest up and come back when I was well again. But, it had been a week now, I don't know how much longer I could act like I had the flu. However, I just didn't have the strengh, energy or drive to get out of my bed. The times I showered where only because Lydia or Maude would literally throw me in there and stand in the bathroom while I washed myself behind my shower curtain. They may as well of held a gun to my head, but these two didn't need guns, they just needed that kinda terrifying stare they both held...women are scary things. I only ate, when they literally force fed me too. I didn't want to eat though, I didn't want to do anything other then curl up in a ball and just be done with it all.