Honey - Tammy

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TW: breakdown (idk if that's exactly what it is but that's the only way I can describe it), loneliness, talk of depression/symptoms
(This is just a little vent because I went through a similar situation a bit ago, so please be kind and remember to check up on your loved ones)
This one isn't my best, and it's shorter than most of my others, but I hope it's okay.
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She walked down the street, tears streaming down her face and breathing ragged. Her silky red dress was soaked from the rain, but she really didn't mind. To be truthful, she hadn't even noticed. Her head was so full of negative thoughts that everything else seemed insignificant.

Leilani just wanted to go home.

Her keys dangled from her fingers, and her phone was wrapped securely in her other hand as she finally approached the front door. She shoved the key in the lock before pushing the door open and stepping into the home she shared with the eight other women. None of them were home except for Tammy, of course, as Leilani had just left the bar they'd all been celebrating in. Her blonde girlfriend had stayed home so she could babysit them all once they got back, but her absence was enough to ruin Leilani's night.

When Leilani finally looked up from shutting the door, she was met with a rather confused Tammy.

"Why are you back so early, honey? I thought you'd all be out until late? And why are you all wet?" she questioned.

The brunette could only let out a pitiful laugh before the tears took over. Her expression crumbled as her keys, phone, and purse fell to the floor at her feet. It was only a moment longer before Leilani fell to her knees with them, her legs no longer strong enough to hold her up. She was sure to have bruises in the morning, but that didn't matter now. She curled into herself, wrapping her arms around her torso as she wept. Her chest heaved as she tried to breathe through her silent screams, her lungs aching and heart pounding against her ribs.

Tammy was stunned for a moment, unable to comprehend what was going on. She was quick to act though, running to her girlfriend's side and pulling the young woman into her lap.

"Shh, talk to me, Lani. What's going on? What can I do?" she whispered, her heart breaking more and more with each sob that escaped her trembling girlfriend.

"I- I just-" The brunette felt like she couldn't speak, her chest so tight that no air was getting to her lungs. She gasped for air as she continued to cry and shake.

"Okay, just breathe for me, honey. I need you to work on your breathing. I know it's scary, but we're going to get through this together," Tammy soothed. She continued to hold Leilani, trying her best to guide her through deep breaths.

Leilani buried herself against the blonde, gripping her blouse and doing what she could to breathe along with the rise and fall of her girlfriend's chest. When she finally caught her breath, she spoke.

"I just felt so alone, Tam. I couldn't take it anymore," she whimpered, hot tears rolling down her cheeks once more.

"Oh, my sweet, sweet girl..." Tammy didn't know what to say. She knew Leilani had been struggling, but she didn't think it had gotten this far. She hugged the brunette closer to her chest and stroked her hair.

"I'm s-sorry, please don't hate me. I'm so sorry," the young woman repeated, her voice quiet and hoarse.

Tammy let out a quiet sigh; hearing and seeing her girlfriend in so much pain was tearing her apart.

"You don't need to apologize, Lani, and I could never hate you. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, honey. I can't imagine what you're going through, but I'm so proud of you for making it this far and for being so strong."

Leilani adjusted herself so she was sitting on the woman's lap facing her with her face buried in her neck. Her tears had finally slowed, and she let out a breath of relief as those words flowed from Tammy's lips.

"Promise me you'll never leave me," she whispered, pulling away from the safety of her girlfriend's shoulder to look her in the eyes.

"I promise you, honey, I'm not going anywhere. You are mine, and I am yours, and we are in this together no matter how difficult it gets. I can guarantee you that," the blonde replied gently. She brushed a loose strand of Leilani's wet hair behind her ear before giving her a small sympathetic smile. "Let's get you out of this dress, hon. I don't want you catching a cold from being out in the rain."

The brunette nodded but didn't make any move to get up. Tammy chuckled quietly and stood up with the young woman wrapped securely in her arms. She held her tight as she carried her into their shared bedroom, before plopping her down on the bed. She got down on her knees and began removing Leilani's heels, sliding them off, and taking them to the closet to put away.

"Tammy?"

"Yeah, baby?" the blonde questioned from the closet.

"Can I wear that sweatshirt of yours that I really like please?" the brunette asked weakly, her voice scratchy from all of her sobs.

Tammy smiled to herself before grabbing the sweatshirt, along with a pair of Leilani's sweatpants, from its spot on the shelf and reentering their shared bedroom.

"Of course you can my sweet girl. Would you like me to help you get changed?"

"Yes please," Lani whispered, nodding her head slowly.

"Okay..." the older woman trailed before helping Leilani to stand. She made sure to keep a hand on her at all times, not wanting to give the brunette's legs a chance to give out without someone to catch her.

Tammy gently tugged at the zipper of the silk dress, pulling it all the way down before allowing the fabric to slip off and pool on the floor at their feet. Leilani shivered as she stood in front of Tammy in only her underwear.

"Alright, hon, sweatshirt first." The blonde slipped her sweatshirt over her girlfriend's head, pecking her nose as she pulled her brown locks from beneath the collar. She then helped her into her sweatpants before allowing her to sit back on the edge of the bed. She hung the dress in their attached laundry room before returning.

Standing in front of Leilani, Tammy gently raised her hand and traced the woman's features, smiling softly as she leaned into her tender touch.

"I love you, Tammy," the brunette whispered as she looked up at the woman with big doe eyes.

"I love you too, my sweet girl," she replied. "Would you like to go to bed, or do you want to stay up for a bit?"

"Stay up, I want to be with you," Leilani answered, wrapping her arms around her girlfriend's waist and pulling her close enough to rest her head on her chest. She smiled softly when Tammy giggled.

"Okay," Tammy whispered. "Let's go to the living room and watch a Marvel movie, hm? How does that sound?"

"Really? You'd watch one with me?"

"Of course I will, honey. Do you want me to carry you?" she asked warmly.

Leilani nodded her head before the feeling of Tammy's arms wrapping around her and lifting her up drew her attention. She buried her face in the crook of the blonde's neck and kissed her exposed skin gently as she held onto her shirt.

The pair made their way to the couch, Tammy laying down first with Leilani on top of her. She laid with her head on the woman's stomach and arms wrapped around her torso, humming quietly as the blonde ran her fingers through her hair.

"I love you, Lani," Tammy murmured when she noticed the young woman's eyes growing heavy.

" 'M love you too," she replied, falling into a deep sleep as Tammy continued to play with her hair and rub small circles into her scalp.

A few hours later, the rest of the group stumbled through the front door, drunkenly giggling and shushing one another as they tripped over their own feet. They all made their way to their bedrooms, all but Debbie, who stopped when she saw the scene in the living room. She looked over Tammy and Leilani lovingly, covering them with a blanket and turning off the television before making her way upstairs to a blonde of her own.

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