Scared Of Heights | Harry Edward Styles

59; Alex visits

I didn't see Harry again after that day.

Delilah and Lavender stayed over for a while and I just told them about my parents, health and Harlow. They were so understanding and sweet and promised to be there for me. I also told them what Harry did and they were equally hurt.

I didn't know how to cope - all I did was smoke endless cigarettes. Lavender made me black tea everyday so I wouldn't get lung damage which was sweet. I kept pushing them away out of fear which hurt them but they didn't stop caring. They stayed. They persisted. They fought for me.

"Good morning darling. How're you?" Delilah came to the front porch to see my smoking my third cigarette.
"Same old. You?" I replied as she took her juul out of her pocket.
"Tired. Its the weekend though. You wanna do something?" She asked.
"Uh...I invited my friend Alex over. You should meet her" I replied.
"That'd be nice. Whens she coming?"
"Now" And right on cue, an uber pulled up in front of us and Alex stepped out.
"Finally told them?" She asked.
"Yeah. Lost my man too" I replied. "This is Delilah"
"Hey there Delilah" Alex grinned.
"Hi" Delilah giggled. "You guys wanna be left alone?"
"Yeah please" Alex replied.

"So...how are you?" Delilah had gone inside and Alex and I were outside.
"Shit. You?" I replied.
"Eh. Managing. What happened with Harry though?" She pondered.
"Harlow approached him and said he had info about me and well Harry listened in. He broke my
trust"
"Oh shit...I'm so sorry. Do you think he knew Harlow was going to stir trouble?"
"Dunno"
"I'm so sorry bestie...I know you loved him a lot"
"Its fine, I won't see his stupid face again"
"It'll be okay" She put an arm round me as I put out my cigarette. "Have you seen him since?"

"Uhhhhh..." How could I tell Alex? She would be crushed.
"I can see the bandages" she said quietly. Fuck.
"I'm sorry. It got too much" I sniffled. "Harry found me a-and...helped. But he's gone now"
"You miss him" She sussed out.
"I'll get over him" I replied.
"I'm here for you. D'you wanna stay over in Easter? Parents are going away"
"Yes please" I started sobbing right there and fell into Alex's arms. "Delilah and Lavender t-thought I died"
"You didn't though. And I'm proud of you"

I took her inside and she met Lavender who had gone through all my things (with my consent) and locked away everything that I could harm myself with in a safe. They also made me some black tea which I thanked them for.
"Alex is joining us for lunch" I announced.
"Huh?" Alex was startled.
"Foursome" Delilah joked.
"Welcome Alex! Pronouns?" Lavender asked.
"She/her. And you?" Alex replied.
"They/them. Delilah is She/They"

"I love you guys. I'm sorry" I said.
"You have nothing to be sorry for. You didn't choose to be mentally ill. We all gotta be there for each other" Lavender replied.
"I agree. Just be there for each other" Alex put an arm round me and smiled.