Breakthroughs within Barriers (Youth Series #4)

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#BWB23

I went back to school after a week of absence.

Woke up with a heavy head and an aching body. I barely got out of bed. My legs hurt, particularly the gap between my thighs. Halos hindi ako makalakad ng maayos. Sobrang sakit din ng ulo ko. It's like being sawed in half. I've never had a hangover like this before in my life, let alone the rough sex Jared and I had last night. 

I shook my head and forced my eyes to open.

Habang naglalakad sa hallway ng school ay pinagtitinginan ako ng mga kaklase ko. Hindi na iyon bago sa'kin. 

I didn't go to school for a week when the video about me was leaked. Nagkulong lang ako sa bahay. I detached myself from social medias too. I kept silent about the issue. 

Akala ko pagpasok ko ay makakalimutan na nila yung issue, pero mukhang mas lalo lang silang naging active. Disgust was written all over their faces. Some avoided me like I have an infectious disease. They were gossiping while the others remained silent while stealing glances at me. I noticed that they were all on their phones.

"Hindi ko alam na magkakaroon pala ng part two yung video ni Victoria! Shuta ang lala niya na!"

"Upgraded version."

"Shocks! I can't believe it. How to unsee?!"

"This is too much. Grabe, why would they have to take a video of them having sex? Para saan?! It's fucking disgusting."

"Another scandal nanaman ni Victoria. Jusko, hindi pa nga tapos yung issue niya may panibago nanaman ulit. Totoo nga talaga yung rumors na malandi siya at pokpok."

"Sobrang problematic niya rin. She's cancelled."

Napahinto ako nang marinig ang usapan ng mga estudyante sa'kin. Nilingon ko sila. Nagulat sila bigla at naglakad palayo.

What the fuck are they saying?

Part two? Another scandal?

Naglakad ako palapit sa isang estudyante na nakasandal sa locker. May hawak siyang phone at mukhang may pinapanood doon. Hinablot ko ang phone niya sa kamay at tinignan iyon. Nanlaki ang mata ko sa nakita. Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig. Halos nanlumo ako sa nakita. Nanghina ang mga tuhod ko, namutla ako at biglang tumuyo ang lalamunan ko.

The video that they're talking about...is a sex video of me and Jared.

Umiling ako. "No. This can't be true. This..this is not me. This must be edited," I stammered

The volume was in full blast and I can clearly hear my moans, and how the bed creaks every time he thrust inside me. Our naked bodies were exposed. His head lowered down between my legs and began to eat me. Hingal na hingal ako habang pawisan. I couldn't hear anything anymore aside from my moans. I was holding tightly on the sheets as he parted my legs even more. Kagat-kagat ko ang labi ko habang ginagawa niya iyon.

The phone suddenly slipped from my hand. Narinig ko iyong bumagsak sa sahig. Pakiramdam ko ay tumigil ang ikot ng mundo, kasabay ng puso ko. Tulala lang ako habang nakatingin sa kamay ko. It started to shake. And that's when I realized that everything is real.

I looked at my schoolmates and they were all looking at me. Some are confused, amused, but above all, disgusted. Nagbubulungan sila habang pinapanood pa rin ang video.

I ran away from them. 

I don't know where to go. I just want to get far from them as much as possible.

Paanong nangyari na nagka-video kami habang ginagawa iyon?!

Could it be...that he did it?

No. That's too much.