His Baby

~ Chapter 24 ~

~ CHAPTER 24~

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"Is she mine?" Jax says tears streaming down his face and I look up at him startled "Is she mine Vic?" he asks again and I look up at him

"Vic, answer me!" he says and I can hear the anger in his voice

"Yes, yes she is" I reply and I stand up

"Fuck" he says and he runs a hand through his hair "I had a right to know Vic"

"Really Jax, YOU broke up with me, I knew that the moment that I told you I was pregnant you would have caught the first plane home and married me"

"Yes, I would have- what is so wrong with that"

"I knew Jax, I knew that it is not what you wanted. You would have felt obligated and 10 years from now, you would have resented me"

"You don't know that"

"But yeah I do. You, you, you broke up with me right before you went to college, so you could start fresh, and not have any responsibilities back here, I wasn't about to burden you."

"She wouldn't have been a burden"

"I didn't want to be the one that held you back from what you wanted," I say and I sit down tears streaming down my face, and I cover my eyes "You left me Jax, not the other way round"

"I had a right to know Vic"

"I know, I'm sorry" I whisper and he sits down beside me. My head goes back in my hands and I hear him let out a shaky sigh.

"I'm really sorry Jax," I say again and I don't hear anything back, we must sit in silence for 30 minutes before he replies

"No, I'm sorry," he says and I look up at him shocked his eyes are red, and I would imagine mine are too. "I'm sorry you felt that you couldn't have told me" he replies and I nod

"I was doing what I thought was best, for you, for me and for her," I say

"I know" he replies

"What do you want to do from here?" I ask him and he looks at me, his bright green eyes shining

"I'm her father. I want to be involved in her life- every aspect" he says and I nod, tears shedding down my eyes, he lifts up my chin and wipes my tears

"It's okay Vic" he says

I nod and he pulls me in for a hug, and I swear I can feel a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. I was carrying so much tension and I finally feel free. We stay seated and he just holds me, like old times.

The silence is comforting. 

We grabbed a few blankets from the upstairs cupboard and are now sitting down in the living room, Jax is turning on the fire. He moves to sit down next to me, and it feels weird, us sitting down next to each other.

"How did you find me?" I eventually ask him. 

"I knew you wouldn't go home, or to my house" he starts "so I guessed you would be here- it was our place after all" he replies

"I didn't think you would find me," I say and he laughs

"I will always find you Vic" he replies and I feel myself blush

"Is there anything that you wanted to say, Jax?" I say and I stare at his side profile. We are seated next to each other, with some distance between us, and I don't remember the last time that we were this close.

"Yeah," he says clearing his throat and I nod, I could tell that something was playing on his mind

"Her name, her documents her everything, I need to know it all, I want to sign everything, a bank account-" he begins and I cut him off