Don't Hold Back (1D fanfic) - [ON HOLD / IN EDITING]

Chapter 2 - Dinner at the James'

Hope you all enjoyed my first chapter. I received some very nice comments so thank you all so much I love hearing feedback. 

This chapter is dedicated to: onedirectionluver31 :) Please go read her stories and fan her she's so sweet!!

Please Note: (James) is Gwen, Carter and their Mom's last name. Just to make that clear ... ok on with the story now<3

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~Kaylee's POV~

Pulling into the driveway I shut off the engine and just sat there thinking to myself. What am I doing? This isn't something I would ever do, and exams are coming up. I should be at home studying, that's where I belong. My parents are probably either worried sick or haven't noticed my absence yet but still I should have never left. Maybe I should have left a note? Wait, no .. I am tired of living life wondering. I wanna have some fun, too, I DESERVE to have some fun. I am a slave to my parent's orders as well as my schoolwork, putting so much pressure on myself all the time and you know what? I'm sick of it. It's about time I break away from living in my parent's shadow and do something I wanna do.

With my new-found confidence in check, I fluffed my hair checking to make sure my eyes weren't puffy from crying before shutting the mirror, and stepping out of the car. I grabbed my duffel bag from the backseat and turned around, coming face-to-face with ... Carter James, Gwen's older brother. I refused to let him see me in such a state so I quickly plastered on a fake smile.

"Kaylee! Hey, what's up girl? Haven't seen you in what feels like ages." He dropped the trash bags he was carrying and envelopes me in a hug. When we pulled away he takes my duffel bag like the gentleman I know he is.

"Yea, it has been a while I guess." I laugh nervously. "AP classes definately keep me on my toes."

"Aw, Kayls, you work too hard, you always have. I'm so happy you're coming with us, though, this is gonna be great. Gwen is so excited she's been packing and unpacking outfits all night." He says with an eyeroll. I hear what he's saying and chuckle in response but I can't help staring into those deep green orbs of his. He's lovely, and if he only knew how I ... NO!! Kaylee stop this right now. It's not worth putting your friendship with Gwen on the line, and besides he's 2 years older than you!! Age may just be a number, but in his eyes I was just a baby.

Now might be a good time to mention my little crush on Carter. I'm awesome at hiding it so Gwen doesn't know, and I hope to keep it that way!! This has been going on since sophmore year when I got rejected to homecoming by Peter Hallahan. I slept over Gwen's that weekend and Carter gave me a heart-to-heart I'll never forget. He comforted me with his kind words in a way not even Gwen could. Ever since, I've been putty in his hands ... he's just not aware of it, I say in my head as I recall the memory, while walking up the cobblestone walkway towards the house pretending to listen to him talking.

~Flashback~

He held me while I cried into his soft cotton shirt, stroking my hair and gently rocking me back and forth on the porch swing.

"Is it me, Carter? Maybe I asked too soon and he wasn't ready .. ?" I cried.

"Kaylee look at me" I looked up into his steady gaze. "This asshole just loss the best damn thing that could have ever happened to him. You hear me?" His tone was serious and his face was stone, showing no emotion.

"But Carter .. I'm never gonna find anyone like Peter. I REALLY liked him, and now I've ruined everything." I looked down letting more tears escape from my swollen eyes. Carter rests a finger on my chin and liftes my face up to look at his.