Angel With a Shotgun- Pentagon Yang Hongseok

14

Maya

A couple weeks had passed since I had gotten the offer to join PTG Group. I had been hidden from the horrendous spotlight that I will eventually have to endure. Shinwon has been lukewarm to my invitation to join the PTG Group; he hadn't wanted to show me his way of planning out missions, so when I tried, I would fail. Hui had gotten onto him about it, though it never stopped him.

This morning, I had woken up in my apartment, Atwood at the end of my bed looking at me. I smile, but the wax melt scent that filled the apartment had gotten to me. I darted toward the bathroom, trying not to vomit on the floor and making it to the toilet, launching whatever was in my stomach from last night into the bowl. After projecting whatever what left into the toilet, I flush the toilet and stand up over the sink. The mirror portrayed a version of myself I wasn't familiar with: a pale, skinny reflection of myself that had lost dinner from the night before. I grab my toothbrush and toothpaste to brush the stomach acid residue off my teeth. That's weird, I don't usually throw up during my cycle.. I should get that checked that out.

A knock on my door interrupts me putting on a gray t-shirt and a pair of jeans. I try to button the pants, but they barely make it past my hips. Did I really grow a size overnight? I suck in whatever I could, buttoning my pants. I jog over to the door, opening it to see Hongseok and Hyunggu standing there.
"Hey, Maya! Good morning," Hyunggu smiles.
"Morning Ggu," I smile, feeling my stomach churn a little. "Morning Seokie."
"Morning little one," Hongseok ruffles my hair a little, smirking.
"Hey, before we go to the base, can we stop at a pharmacy or gas station? I'm not feeling all too well this morning," I explain why I asked.
"You alright?" Hongseok lifts his hand to feel my forehead. "Any fever? Chills? Sweats?"
"Nope, just my stomach turning and flipping, causing me to throw up," I sigh, rubbing my stomach while pouting.
"Alright, we can do that, no worries," both males smile at me gently.

We had made our way to the car eventually. I pull out my phone, wanting to check one specific app. I press the pink app on my phone, the app being a period tracker. It loads quickly, before then showing me a small calendar. The words '9 days late' flashes on the screen. What the hell? It's always on time. Hongseok pulls off the main road, finding a gas station.
"Wait here, I'll be right back," I smile, remaining as calm as I can. I climb out and close the door, my debit card in my pocket. I run quickly, entering the gas station to look for one item in particular. A pregnancy test. I find one and run to the register.
The young male at the register looks at the test, then at me, "A scare?"
"I sure hope so," I sigh, trying to conceal the fear I have.
"Well, I wish you the best," he gives me a small smile. "₩4,000, please."
I swipe my card, then read his name tag, "Thanks, Taehyun."
"Want a receipt?"
"It's alright," I shake my head, running to the bathroom.

The door is locked and I take the entire space, the bathroom being a singular toilet, a sink, and some soap & a small hand dryer. I look at the box in my hand, my hands shaking. I can do this, I can do this, I can do this.
I rip open the box, taking the packaged test into my hand. I rip open the foiled packaging and sigh, "Now or never."

Three minutes and I'll know. I set a timer on my phone, turning away from the test on the counter. What the hell am I doing with Hongseok? These past few weeks have just been awkward. I took the PlanB pill, then he & I pretty much had the most awkward sexual tension, but I know it wouldn't be the best for it to occur again. What if I am pregnant? Will we even be able to care for the potential baby growing inside of me? Would the mafia lifestyle be alright to raise a baby in? If I am pregnant, should I continue to live the life I have now? Or should I run away to protect myself and the child? Should I get an abortion? The what seemed to be millions of questions swirled around my head, until the time went off. I turn my head, then sigh. I walk toward the counter by the sink, picking the test up.
"Oh my god," I whisper to myself. Pregnant.

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Hyunggu

"Hey, I'm going to check if she's alright, she's been gone for ten minutes," I turn to Hongseok.
"Just be quick, you know Hui hates when we're late," Hongseok reminds me.
"Got it." I climb out of the car, jogging to the gas station building. I enter the building, looking for a restroom sign, and walking in that direction.
I knock on the female restroom door, "Maya? It's Ggu."
The door clicks, "Come in."
"You okay..." I stop my sentence when I see her crouched on the ground, a pregnancy test on the counter. "Maya, are you?" She nods, pushing her hair back. "Is it his?" She nods again, as I crouch down to bring her in for a hug.
"What am I going to do?" She grabs the test, stands up, and stuffs it in her back pocket.
"Well, tell him and talk about your options. He has every right to know, since it is his child too. That's what I would do," I tell her point blank.
"But with this lifestyle? I doubt he'll want to keep a baby with the danger we're in 24/7," I hear her sigh. "But, fine, I'll talk to him then."
"Good, now, Hui is waiting for us."

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Maya
My mind was preoccupied with other things, but tuned in at random times to listen to Hui. I made sure to make it look like I was listening to what he was saying, so I didn't get yelled at. I'm pregnant. How am I even saying this when I couldn't even comprehend the death of my parents last year?
"Meeting adjourned," I hear Hui dismiss everyone.
"Hongseok," I look at him from across the table. He looks back. "You and I need to talk in the library."
"Okay?" He looks at me confused, following me.

I open the door to the library, letting him enter before I close and lock the door.
"Maya? Is everything okay?"
"No, it isn't, Hongseok," I look down.
"What's wrong? Whatever it is, we can solve it together," he places his hands gently on my shoulders. I push them off me, grabbing the test from my pocket, and toss it at him.
"This is a situation we can't fix."
"What?"
"I'm pregnant, Hongseok."