My Forever Hope

Chapter 4

Warnings- self harm suicide attempt past actions mentions of death.

I found myself standing in a room with a lady when I looked closer I saw my mother next to a dead body when I looked closer I saw It was Tom I ran towards him crying knowing this was all my fault Tom was dead and it was all my fault

"This is what you get you stupid child"

Then I woke up crying because I just saw Tom dead on the ground knowing I couldn't save him my ribs were hurting because of how hard I was crying but I couldn't stop he died I needed to see him to make sure he was ok

I got out of bed with tears streaming down my face I left my room and went to Toms and knocked on his bedroom door because I didn't want to invade his privacy

Tom opened the door still half asleep but as soon as I saw him I hugged him knowing he was safe and wasn't dead

"Y/n what's wrong what happened" H said while rubbing my back trying to calm me down

"Your alive" I said with tears streaming down my face with uncontrollable sobs 

"Yes I am are you ok what happened?"

"She K-Killed you y-you were dead I-I wasn't able to save you m-my m-mom killed you"

"Oh god Y/n I am ok I'm right here I'm alive shh everything is ok she can't hurt us ok"

"I don't want you to die you mean to much to me"

"I'm not going to die I am ok do you want to sleep in my room tonight?"

I didn't even have words i just nodded and he walked me to his bed and I got on one side and him on the other and he held me and told me everything is going to be alright.  I fell asleep pretty fast after that I didn't have any more nightmares for the rest of the night.

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The next morning I woke up to the sound of something falling downstairs.  I got out of bed an ran into the kitchen only to see a couple pots on the floor and tom trying to pick them up

"Are you ok?"

"Oh sorry did I wake you Y/n?"

"No that doesn't matter are you ok?"

"Yes I'm fine darling are you ok from last night?"

Remembering my dream I started to tear up again and walked over to hug Tom

"Hey shh its ok darling everything is ok but we have to get to school soon ok so get ready then tonight when we get home we will have a daddy daughter movie night how does that sound?"

"Perfect I will go get ready I will be down in a little bit"

"Ok darling be careful"

"I will"

I walked upstairs got some jeans and a shirt with my hoodie and took a shower.  After I finished getting ready I walked downstairs to see Tom in his suit.

"Ready Y/n?"

"Yup lets go"

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After about 20 minutes we made it to the school Tom went to his class and I went to my locker to get my things for first period and headed to class.  I got to class like normal sat In the back but my ribs started hurting again and I didn't bring anything for them so I had to suffer through first period and probably the rest of the school day without them.

I finished my first 3 periods and walked to the library for lunch again and read my Grandmothers notes and was greeted by Tom

"Darling is that you"