Freedom Of Thought.

Just One Time

Have you  ever sailed across an ocean?
On a sailboat surrounded by sea with no
land in sight?
Without even the possibility of sighting land
in the days to come,to stand at the helm of
your destiny?
I want that, one more time.
I want to feel the surge as ten race horses
go thundering by,
I want another meal at my favourite hotel,
I want another bottle of wine,
And then another,
I want the warmth of a woman,
Sitting by my side; head on my chest,
Walking beside me,
Holding hands as we stroll through this
concrete jungle,
One more night of jazz with her,
In front of the best live band,
I want to stand next to her in the morning
on a summit and feel the sun for as long as
I can,
Walk on the wall again,
Climb the tower,
Ride the river,
Stare at the world.
I want to sit in a garden and read one
more good book,
Most of all I want to sleep,
I want to sleep like when I was a boy,
Give me that,
Just – one time.
I imagine what I could have,
And wish someone would give me that,
Once would be enough,
Just so I could know how it feels,
I look out at the sunset from one bedroom
window,
The sunrise from another,
And wonder how much better it would be
to get to see that one more time,
Only this time with her in my arms and not
my head,
I want to have that youthful vigour I once
had,
Know for a day how happy feels again,
This is no way to live,
Take this away,
And give me a tear,
A tear of joy,
Shed while enjoying the rythm of a
saxophone,
Thinking of how good it could all be,
Leave me my life,
Don’t take the pain either,
It has become a part of me,
Just like a careless whisper at the wrong
one,
Grant me one dance,
Even if it will be my last,
But let me share it with her,
Give me that,
Just – one time.
I want smile long and hard,
I’ve almost forgotten how it feels,
I want to have a family,
Feel loved again,
I want no sadness in my eyes,
I want to walk on the shores of the ocean,
And have my mind empty of thought,
Smile at complete strangers like I’ve
known them for years,
I want to look at the sky and not wish that
is where I was,
Secluded and alone,
I want to say a prayer,
And say something good in it for once,
I want to want to live,
To want to see the next day,
And see it as an opportunity to make
someone happy,
All this, I don’t ask for on multiple
occasions,
Because all I need is for you,
For you to,
Give me that,
Just – just, just one time,
That’s all I need.