I wish I wasn’t in love with you so I
wouldn’t feel this way,
I wish you would hold me tight in your arms and keep me there,
You’re never going to change and I’m always going to feel this way,
You said you cared about me but I’m not feeling that, I disagree,
It just isn’t fair, here I am wasting my time thinking about you,
I’m wondering, should I let you win?
I’ve always been a sucker for romance,
If I had one wish, I’d wish you next to me,
Everyday I’m not with you I miss you like crazy,
I wish I could give you my life, my heart, my soul,
I’ll never let you go,
You must know the truth, I’m nothing without you,
You give me joy and charm, such happiness,
Love me, hold me, touch me, I need you to,
I really love you so,
If you only knew what you really do,
I could spend half a lifetime looking for someone like you,
No one compares to you even with the love we don’t share,
I trust that I am kind to your soul in my saying,
Everything is not alright without you
I’d have thought all we’ve been through
would make you think different,
I’m going through some hard times,
It hasn’t always been a smooth ride,
Maybe that’s the whole point of it in the first place,
In an ideal world I wouldn’t have to say all this,
In an ideal world you’d be in terms with me,
I never felt like this before,
Don’t take this the wrong way,
Would things be easier if there was a right way ?
But there is no right way when it comes to this,
We’re supposed to make the way together then make it right,
You can’t make your heart feel what it won’t and I know that,
Still I fall in love a little bit more
everyday,
I don’t have much influence over how you feel,
I can only do so much in that aspect,
I’ve done more than so much and maybe that’s what pushes you further,
I don’t know what else to do because this is how I feel.
I want you to know that,
Every time I watch a movie and see a couple my head quickly reminds me of you,
I now can’t watch romantic movies
anymore because it hurts,
Looking at couples becomes a bummer yet I see lots of those,
I will always want you,
But I have to let you win because seems you will never let me in,
I don’t want to let you go though,
Maybe when I’m older I’ll see things
through your eyes,
Something keeps telling me things will get better,
Time fades, moments pass, seasons change,
but I remain the same old,
It would have been our time only if,
Once again I’m down to fractions,
I wish you and me would run the same course,
It sometimes feels like I’m too much of an imposition,
I need something to wash away all this pain because numbing isn’t enough anymore,
We’re on parallel paths but going in the same direction,
That really sucks because I get to see you and be with you a whole lot,
You said that we should just be friends and it kills me,
There’s no denying, I’m not so good at being just friends,
I woke up an optimist but that dies quicker than a tree in winter,
I’m not thinking straight, I blame it mostly on me and partly on you,
When I’m with you there’s no place I’d rather be,
If only you gave me a chance,
I want to be more than friends and this will always be,
I want to be your fairy tale, I want to be that guy that will love you well,
I’ve been trying to give you all the space you need,
I will always love you, at least I’m being honest.
YOU ARE READING
Freedom Of Thought.
PoetryIf my thoughts were a pen and my hands were the canvas, even I would not fully get the sense of it.
