There's No Changing Fate

(Ch.2)

-Two-

I was two months into my Junior year, and now I was not only diagnosed with depression, but I was certain I had some form of insomnia. No matter what I tried, I couldn't get to sleep. I concluded it was because I severely missed Donghae, and I hadn't seen him in thirteen months. But, as far as I knew, he was still in South Korea, and who knows how long he'd be there for.

I tried counting sheep, listening to ballads, and even drinking warm milk, but I was still wide awake. I was lucky if I could get an hour of sleep a night. I would go to a doctor, but they'd either call me crazy, or not believe me. Maybe even a combination of both. That's the last thing I needed.

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On the last day before Christmas break, I realized I didn't have to see any of the faces at school for two weeks, and that in a way made me happy. No drama, just me all by myself. Although I knew my holiday season would be better if Donghae were here. Saying I missed him now was getting repetitive, and it was a huge understatement; I didn't just miss him, I craved him. I yearned for him, and my desires just wouldn't get met this year.

Fate must've thought we shouldn't be together.

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On Christmas Eve I heard a strange knock on my door, and I'm still not sure if I was crazy enough to think it was Santa coming to bring my presents early. Tentatively, I unlocked the door, but was surprised when I saw no one there. I had heard the door knock, didn't I?

I walked out on the porch, although it was covered in snow and started making my socks wet. I could've swore I saw footprints in the snow aimed towards my door, but I couldn't've been sure. I would've walked out more to check, but the snow had completely soaked my socks, and I wasn't risking catching a cold.

As I got back into bed, I thought about hot chocolate, and how amazing it'd feel in contrast to my shivering body, but then I remembered my bed was just as warm, and I soon found sleep by nestling under the covers, like a butterfly in its cocoon.

That night, I had one of the most vivid dreams I've ever had. I knew I had to be crazy, because this one involved Donghae returning from Seoul with a bouquet of roses and a box of chocolates, asking if I'd be with him forever.

Immediately I agreed, not knowing when the next time I'd be presented with an opportunity like this again, and he grinned from ear to ear, like he just won the lottery.

He took me out to the fanciest Italian restaurant, which turned out to be the Olive Garden two blocks away, but I really didn't mind. I was going out with Donghae, and that alone made me the happiest girl on the planet.

We ordered a plate of spaghetti and re-enacted the famous kiss scene in Lady and the Tramp, I felt as if I was on cloud 9. It felt so wonderful to kiss Donghae again. I took advantage of the moment, because this was Donghae here, and the chances of being able to kiss him again were slim.

We soon had to separate though, so we were'nt making out in the middle of the restaurant. I was sure the waitress was tired of watching us suck face, too.

Donghae and I left the restaurant hand-in-hand, and I felt like the luckiest girl ever, a prince and his princess on horseback riding to their castle. I was sure then that I loved him, and I had to make sure he felt the same way, because if he didn't, I wasn't sure if I would be able to love again.

I turned to him nervously. I didn't even know why I was so on edge, I mean, sure, there was a chance he didn't return the feelings I had for him, but after the night we had, they were slim, right?

Unable to hold my feelings in anymore, I just blurted out, "I love you."

I heard a gasp. He unlocked our hands together, and right then I wanted to cry. This wasn't how it was supposed to go.

Then he leaned right up to my ear, whispering, "I love you, too."

I opened my eyes and turned to my left. Standing there was none other than Lee Donghae.