There's No Changing Fate

(Ch.8)

-Eight-

Dear Super Junior,

I hope you understand the circumstances, and that I should really get back home-

No, that was a horrible way to start a letter, especially my farewell letter.

It's been great living with you.

Yeah for the most part, not regarding all my mixed emotions.

I'm going to miss you all.

Correction. I'd only miss Hyukjae, maybe Jungsu, and possibly Siwon. In a few years, I probably won't remember the other's names.

I crumpled up the letter and started over.

Dear Hyukjae,

I know this is sudden and unexpected, but know it's for the best I leave. Always know you've been nothing but kind and genuine to me, and those are qualities I'd like you to keep. I'm leaving because it seems there's too many problems with me here, I feel like a burden. Rekindle your friendship with Donghae, you two need each other, even if you don't know it. Don't let a stupid girl get in between you.

A tear rolled down my cheek and landed on the paper. I tried wiping it off, but it only smeared some of the pen I was writing in.

I say I'm in love a lot. I'm in love with food, specifically Nutella. I'm in love with shopping. I'm in love with reading. Hell, I even said I was in love with Donghae. Now that I think about it, maybe I wasn't. Maybe I was waiting for the right person to come around.. I've heard that when you say you're in love, you mean it. That's why I'm making sure I do the same when I say, I love you, too. No one's ever made me feel the way you make me feel-

I took a moment to sob silently in the comfort of Hyukjae's currently empty room. Suddenly I heard footsteps walking down the hallway. Hurriedly, I folded the letter up, and shoved it in an envelope just in time for Hyukjae to run into his bedroom with what looked like good news.

"Rebekah! Guess what!" he shouted.

I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know."

"We're debuting this Saturday!"

I was shocked. That was in two days.

"Congrats!" I cheered as I got up to hug him tight and give a light peck on the lips.

~

After Hyukjae left, I made sure to stick the letter in a place it was sure to be found after their debut- Siwon's bible in his nightstand drawer. I knew he'd open it up Sunday morning, and by that time, I'd already be gone.

For the other members, I left little goodbyes,

Jungsu, I love how caring you are. You've supported me through the toughest of times, and I can never repay you.

Jongwoon and Ryeowook, keep excelling in singing, you two are amazing! ^^

Sungmin, I bet rooming with Donghae is a blast, ^^

But at the very end of all the goodbyes, I put one I never wanted to say in the past, Donghae's.

Donghae, I'm not mad, I just want an explanation.

~

[3rd-person POV]

Heechul walked into the dorm Friday night to find Siwon in his room panicking.

He rolled his eyes. "What happened now? Did Jesus go on strike? Did Satan force his way into heaven?"

"No. Read this." Siwon replied, forcing Rebekah's letter into his hands.