My confused angel: A Castiel love story

Brother.

I look around, to see I'm in a...forest, or maybe it's a Garden? I see beautiful flowers and I also see a waterfall. I become breathless, it was a truly breath taking place.
"Hello Ella." A voice behind me says. I turn to see a man, a beautiful man. Not hot, attractive or cute, no, beautiful. I wasn't attracted to him like that, more like...family? This couldn't be...? I feel this garden is familiar...
"Uh, hello." I respond.
"Yes. I see you are remembering." He says.
"Um sort of." I say, still confused of where I am.
"You must be wondering where you are, am I right? Here's a hint, it's the last place we talked before I sent you to earth." He says. A memory starts resurfacing...
"Brother, why'd you want to meet here?" I ask, clearly confused as to why we would need to speak privately. We told the Angels everything, and we let them hear everything.
"It's about your...disgrace of a son." He says, talking about my son in disgust. I gasp.
"Do not talk about Lucifer that way, brother!" I say in rage, trying to remain calm.
"He is a disgrace! Telling the other Angels that humans are pathetic and worthless. I needed to punish him. His actions weren't to be tolerated." He says.
"Punish him? What did you do?!" I yell, the first time I ever lost my temper.
"I sent him to a place called Hell. He will stay there for eternity. He may not be forgiven for his actions, Ella!" He says.
"How dare you! He is my son, not yours. You do not see me banishing your sons from Heaven, do you? No! And you have thousands of sons, I only have one!" I say, shaking with rage.
"I will not tolerate your temper either. How dare you raise your voice at me. I am your brother." He says.
"Where is this Hell?" I ask calmly.
"On Earth, beneath the grounds, but unless you wish to remain there forever, I suggest you don't try to go there." He says
"You would put your own sister in Hell?" I ask, shocked.
"If I have too, I will." He says, taking a dangerous step forward. I laugh.
"Brother, I am just as strong as you. You couldn't over power me." I say.
"I know, I wouldn't ever want to harm you, sister. But you trying to protect Lucifer's will not stand well with the Angels. I must send you away for a while." He says.
"Don't you dare, brother." I say, unafraid. No, he could not hurt me, but he is fully capable of sending me away.
"I have too." He says. Everything starts blurring and I start to feel light headed. I fall on the ground, breathless, passing out. I faintly hear my brother say
"I'm so sorry Ella, I love you sister, I really do. I can't wait to see you in a century or so... And when I do, I hope you won't be upset with me."
And then I feel my spirit traveling for decades, waiting for the perfect time to become human. Forty years later, I find it. I begin falling, hard. As if I'm a shooting star. I feel as if I'm on fire and then, all I hear is crying and I lose my memory of being God's sister...
"We're in the Garden of Eden." I say, remembering bits by bits of my memories.
"Yes, Ella." He says.
"And you're God, my...brother." I say.
"Also correct." He says.
I refuse to continue the conversation first. I'm angry at him.
"You know...when I sent you away, I didn't expect you to take forty years to simply become human. And it surprised me when you chose to be a sister of the Winchesters. They weren't meant to have a sister, you changed a lot of things." He says.
"I don't remember why I chose to be a Winchester, I simply remember being drawn there, like I was meant to be there." I say.
"I didn't expect us to meet again this soon. I thought you would become human right away, live a happy live, and then when you would die as a human, you'd come back here." He says.
"Well things don't always go as planed." I say.
"No they don't, just like Castiel falling in love with you. Now that, was a surprise!" He says, chuckling. I simply remain still, emotionless towards him.
In love?
"Ah sister, don't tell me you're still mad." He says. I cringe as he says 'sister'.
"I am, and don't call me sister." I say ask he frowns at that.
"You are my sister." He says, confused.
"We may be blood, which in this body we aren't even that, but we aren't family. No brother who cares about their sister would do that." I explain, strangely calm.
"I truly am sorry." He says.
"Sorry does not fix everything." I say.
"That is fair. How about I let you be with Castiel up in Heaven?" He says.
"And why would you do that? You sent me down there for protecting Lucifer when he broke a rule, why would you let me break one?" I ask.
"I simply want your forgiveness, no matter the cost." He says.
"No...that's not it. Your not in Heaven right now are you? No, you've been gone for a long time." I say, realizing this.
"Well I cannot rule Heaven without you, so I left for a while." He says.
"You ran like a coward. The Angels, your children, they had faith in you, most of them still do. So what you do is leave me and my family alone, and go back to Heaven." I say.
"No, you are taking too long to get your powers back. Even when your 'brother' is about to die, you don't explode with rage. Yes, you threw that demon across that wall, but you didn't do anything else. Family huh?" He says, smirking.
"You have no right to question me. And haven't you ever thought, maybe un-subconsciously I didn't want my powers back, and that's the reason I haven't exploded." I say.
"No matter, I am speeding up the process." He says.
"I don't want them back." I say, standing tall.
"It doesn't matter what you want, you are getting them back." He says. As soon as he finishes that sentence I fall on the ground, just like I had all those decades ago, but his time instead of feeling light headed, all I feel is pain.
If I/you weren't in this body, he wouldn't be able to harm me/you. A voice in my mind says.
"I am sorry, once again, sister." He says.

"Once again...sorry doesn't fix everything." I manage to say before everything goes back.

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A/N: I actually had so much fun writing this! I've truly missed this story. I hope that I'm still good at writing it and that it sparks your curiosity/interest. I know it isn't technically March Break yet, but surprise, I updated! By the way, since I've decided not to put this story on hold, I deleted the Author Notes.
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