My confused angel: A Castiel love story

I am here now

A/N: In case of confusion, italic lettering is human Ella's thoughts, and bold lettering is God's sister Ella's thoughts. I AM SO SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT UPDATING. Forgive me!!
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I walk into a building, where the Winchesters said my son would be. A few steps in, the lights flicker and I feel a presence behind me. But I know every aura in this world, and I can tell who it is. Disappointingly, it's not Lucifer. I turn, to be met by Castiel. His face goes from confused to worried.
"Ella?" He asks.
"Yes, what do you want?" I ask.
"Do not go to Lucifer. You're place is with the Winchesters, your brothers. Go back to them, and forget trying to find him." He says. My eyes blaze with anger and he takes a step back.
"Did you just give me an order?" I ask, my voice dangerously low.
"I am sorry. It is not my place, please forgive me." He says, in the way he was trained.
"Alright." I say and make a move to walk way.
"Wait, you are still going?" He asks. I turn back.
"Yes. And if you value your life, don't try to stop me, because you know you can't." I say and walk away, Castiel stopping me once again.
"I know you're still in there. The real Ella, not the emotionless Ella." He says.
Yes Castiel, I'm right here!
Shut up!
"You think she's still in here? This is my body, my mind. She is the intruder, not me. Do not forget that." I say.
"She's still in there, I know it." He says, confident.
Before leaving, I make sure to try to get it in his brain.
"She is long gone Castiel. Also, you should remember that it was her that loved you not me. So do not try and save me because there is no one left to be saved." I respond. I walk away for real this time. Walking away I try and find my son but he's nowhere to be found. How is it possible that I cannot find my own child? I try to feel his aura but it's blocked by something. Those damn Winchesters they probably did a spell so that I can't track him. If they did a spell, then why did Castiel try to stop me? My inner self fights with me, I said she was gone, she really isn't. Because the fact is, this is her body, her mind. I am the intruder, not her. I know this but I will not admit it out loud to anybody because I am God's sister and I will not show weakness, I can't show weakness. I decided to teleport to Zachariah, he will know where he is. If anybody wants Lucifer free, it's him. Which means that he had taken part in Lucifer's awakening. Once up my destined location, I walk into the room where I know Zachariah is. Walking inside I draw all the attention from everyone in the room. Surprisingly they never heard the myth of god's sister until now, until the Angels blabbered.
"Ah, Ella Winchester. Or should I say just Ella." Zachariah says.
"Do not sass me. I am in no mood." I say.
"Alright. What is it you are here for?" He asks.
"I think you know." I answer.
"Lucifer." He says.
"Smart boy. So, where is he?" I ask.
"If you can't find him, why do you think I would know?" He asks.
"Stop playing games Zachariah, I know you awakened him." I say.
"Well actually it was that filthy demon Ruby. I would tell you to ask her, but she's dead." He says.
"So in the end, Lilith sacrificed herself." I say to myself.
Wow. I didn't expect that.
Neither did I.
"Yes. She did." He responds.
"Alright, good bye for now Zachariah." I say, ignoring the other angels in the room. I flash out of there, in to a quiet forest.
"I am sorry, Ella. I do not wish to stay in your body, I simply want to find my son." I say, knowing that she hears me from inside my/her head.
I...I understand. I just really want control over my body again.
"The sooner we find him, the sooner it will happen." I respond.
I think I might know where he is...
"Where?" I ask.
All angels, even the fallen, need a vessel right?
"Yes, they do!" I say smiling. I close my eyes. And I focus on who is Lucifer's vessel. I think very hard on who it might be, being his mother, I know exactly who it is as long as I concentrate to find out who it is. I look deep into my mind and his vessel pops into my head. I gasp out loud...
It's Sam.
How ironic is that? I ask myself. But Sam is not possessed by any angel, fallen or not. So Lucifer must be about to possess his temporary replacement until he can get Sam to say yes. So I continue to look to see who his replacement might be, and I find very easily. As soon as I know who it is, I teleport there immediately. Once in the in front of the house where he lives I walk in. I search all rooms until I find the room he is in. Once I fall finally walk into the master bedroom, I see the vessel in deep thought. He looks up and once he sees me, he becomes frightened.
"Who are you? What do you want? How did-" I cut him off.
"I am Ella. Now I trust that you have a big decision to make?" I ask confidently.
"Ella? You're his mother..." He whispers to himself.
"You're God's sister." He says out loud, towards me.
"Yes I am, you can trust me." I say.
"I-I don't know what to do..." He whispers.
"Say yes. Let him in." I say. He looks at me and pauses a few seconds before nodding. He takes a deep breath.
"I give you permission." He says. As soon as those words are out of his mouth, a bright light appears, coming out of his mouth nose and eyes. He is here. Lucifer is here. The light goes away, and the vessel stands up straight, turning towards me looking directly in my eyes.
"Mother?" He asks, not believing what he is seeing.
"It is me, Lucifer. It is me..." I say.