There are always two out comes of every situation we are placed in. We either stay trapped and die or we do what we have to do and survive this together. Although, it still matters on what you do to thrive. You can't let the things you did hold you back. Yet, we're surrounded by family and changing yourself for the worse can drive everyone else away. That's if theyre different.
Fear. That word races in my mind.
We fear everyday if we're going to make it or if we have another threat on our hands. There is no denying that. Our threat are strangers and my own brother. I can't look at him without feeling my blood boil. In the next minute, my heart shatters. Nobody has a clue on what to do with Aron.
I lie against the wall of the church that we followed this guy to, Gabriel. He's innocent, sensitive and absolutely clueless.
Those are the ones who die first. I wish i can still have my innocence but then my mind changes. I would have been dead.
We've also found another person. Noah. He told us he grew a pair to finally escape a place he thought he'd die in.
I flash away from my thoughts as Rick makes his way over to me with baby Judith in his hands. No matter what mood im in, she'll always bring a smile to my face. her arms extend towards me as Rick inches closer. She's going to grow strong in this environment. No doubt about that.
He gently places her in my arms then cuddles with us, letting me sit in between his legs. "This." Judith grabs my finger. "she's a miracle." She continues to coo and babble. I need to tell Rick.
"Judith, Carl and you are." Rick says tiredly. "You can go to sleep ya know. I can watch-"
"I can handle it." He says, tiredly.
"That's a big lie coming from your mouth. You've haven't slept in days." I turn to observe him. He tries to hide it.
"And i can last a few more days." Gently, he goes in for a kiss, connecting us closer. Every time we kiss, it has so much meaning into it. Never once has it meant nothing but i wish it can lead deeper. Just me and Rick.
"I should have done this the first time i saw you. You were going through so much." Rick looks into my eyes, piercing my soul. "You're doing it now." I wink at him. His eyes stare at me other than purity, but a spark of lust.
"We'll head to Washington in a few days." That word...Washington breaks the kiss apart as Rick grunts in frustrstion. Abraham has never shut his mouth about Washington. It's all he ever yaps about. Why doesn't he grab father Gabriel and unite them as one.
I'm fed up. "Eugene, how classified is this cure? If you tell us we can probably scavage around and fine the things you need." Rick and I both get up and i walk over to Carl placing Judith in his arms and give him a hug.
"It's classified." Eugene is no different from Abraham either. He has Washington. Eugene has permanently own classified.
"We are not going to Washington." Rick says harshly. He stares at Abraham with fierce eyes. "And why's that?" Abraham speaks.
"Look what we've been through. How is trusting you, Rosita and Eugene any different from the rest of the survivors?"
You can always see the frustration in Rick. There is never a time he doesn't show it.
"Because he saved me, Tara Maggie and Sasha." Glenn finally speaks up.
"That can be anyone. We've known these guys for a day, day in a half. How can you be so sure to trust them?" Rosita gives me a look that shows she doesnt like me so far.
"Well ask us that about you're brother. We've known him for a few years and we can't. Explain that." I want to explode knowing that people are gaining up on me right now but i can't blame them. We're all restless and drained. Instead, i nod my head. Glenn has made a good point.
Daryl hasn't left Aron's sight.
Finally, Rick comes back to me. "You get some rest. I'll be here when you wake up." Laying down, i know i wont be falling asleep. I never do.
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Rick's P.O.V
Before i say goodbye to Judith and Carl, i give my son a few words.
"Are you afraid of me?" I ask. It is a quiet silence that takes over for a few seconds until he says something.
"Not anymore." He readjust his hat.
"Keepy and eye on Judy and Carl..." I bend down to his level. "Don't think you're safe in here because youre not. Don't think you're safe anywhere. Carl, you are not safe. It only takes one second, one second and it's all over. Do you understand?"
"Yeah? Be careful out there dad."
I get up to Daryl. "Make sure nobody kills him." I eye in disgust at Aron. "He aint goin anywhere." And with that, i left to the car ignoring Abraham's bickering.
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i drive down multiple roads, taking directions from Iris. We fixed this small car found on the street. She still hasn't tell me what we're going for.
"You need to talk." I grab her hand, interlocking it with mine. She doesn't look herself. Not in defense mode, exciting mode. Just bland. "Please don't be mad at me." Is all she manages to get out.
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She leads me to a decent size house in the woods. Two stories, brown. Her house.
She still hasn't spoken a word. I grab her wrist as she stares at bones in front of it. Faith.
"H-he lied to me."
"Don't look. Iris-"she fidgets as she tries to but i stop her. "You looked for her. You know you did."
She scares me as her eyes have never looked so sad. "Please Rick, dont be mad at me." She repeats.
"Why would i be mad at you?" She walks past the bones with my hand in hers, leading me to her house. I've never seen her this sad.
"We need to check the rooms. Go over the drill."
"It's clear Rick." She says blandly. Pictures hang on the walls and one catches my attention in particular. Her, a man and a child. I can feel anger and sorrow build.
She lets go of my hand as we stop in front of a door.
"I should have told you..." tears fall immediately. Automatically, i bend down to her level. To comfort the one i love. "I tried so hard Rick." I can feel the pain she holds yet i don't know what she did.
"Tell me what you did." I say as calmy as i can.
She stops me as i try to take her in my arms. "Don't. Just look." The door has child hand prints all over, painted in blue. As i open it, i stand in front of a child's room i never knew Iris had.
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Officer Blue (Rick Grimes FF)
Fanfiction25 year old Iris, has not seen a human since the 3 years she's been alone. It is until then she discovers that it's better for herself. She has secrets that need to be hidden and that's what separates her from the rest of everyone else. She may...
