We are almost to the prison and the drive is silent. The sound of engine takes over.
"I didn't know you had such good aim. Have you done training before? " I know he doesn't like the silence either. Rick knows something is wrong with me. I just want it to remain silent because I had to add another person to the number of people I've killed. "No...i just learned as i went. It's as simple as that." I shrug my shoulders not wanting him to notice my depressed eyes.
Rick stops the car on the side of the road. What is he doing now? The day is turning to night and he stops in the middle of nowhere.
"I dont know what you're hiding from me and my family, but I want to know now." He looks at me with his deadly eyes.
"I-I can't. Listen, can we just-"
"No." All you can hear is his breathing.
I know im stuck with this. This will forever be with, haunting me, torturing me.
"You can trust me." Rick whispers quietly. I look at him wanting to cry but hold it back.
"God Rick, you're going to think of me as a killer." I chuckle. "What I've done to survive....I've killed people in horrible ways." The images flood my mind. "The first group i was with had mostly men. They pretended they were friendly and the next thing, they were touching me." I close my eyes and reopen seeing Rick holding the bridge of his nose.
"This guy took me to the woods to show me how to hunt but really, he tried getting his hands on me. He was so close to r-" i stopped. I lift up the side of my shirt to show a knife scar. "he took his knife and just stabbed me like one of them. I saw this walker behind him and let it tear his neck off. I just watched him bite him and he looked at me with pitty...that was the first."
"Iris, we've all done something we're not proud of. And im sorry you-"
I stop him. "You want to know what i did to one guy in an other group? I sliced his stomach open then his neck to show the rest of them im a danger to them so i could escape. They caged me like animals Rick. Starved me and tried to use me as bait...The killing never stopped in that group. I had to escape or i would have died by monsters."
By now i have tears. What if i get kicked from the group or that im looked at another way?
"I don't blame you. I would have done the same thing to survive. I don't want you to think that you're different because of that. We've all done something we can never go back to...you did what you had to do." He places his hand on my mid thigh.
"I can see that you're strong. You can trust us Iris and we can trust you." What makes me melt is hearing my name come out of his mouth. Not only that, but his sense of leader ship and hardman ship. Rick Grimes is strong. If only his words are believable.
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"Iris can you help me with getting dinner ready?" Carol calls me over to the kitchen.
I walk towards her with a fake smile. Rick and I just got back an hour ago and he hasn't talked to me since. The drive was silent and he left me to take the supplies to Carol. He may have said some things that sounded caring but maybe he thinks i really am a monster. I knew I shouldn't have believed him.
"We can get dinner ready soon. With the supplies you brought, we can have a good dinner tonight." She smiles at me.
"I remember my first meal here. I used to eat every other day before I was brought here. I was able to handle it too. Now, your cooking has me craving food every day." She laughs while we prepare the food for that hour. Something for us to forget our troubles.
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I bring my plate over to Aron who sits alone.
"Hey" I smile at him trying to forget how he treated me but he shakes his head. "I wish you would smile everyday."
"Yeah, like that can happen." He eats hunched over, to himself. As i look up, Rick and Daryl walk over to our table. Not that i have a problem.
"Ay, thanks for brining back stuff with Rick." Daryl sets in with Rick staring at me but with no words still.
"No problem." I stir the food on my plate.
Rick and Daryl talk amongst themselves. I feel uncomfortable being around Rick. I know for sure he thinks im crazy or that im going to go turn on them. But I've lasted here longer than any other place. By choice that is.
"Aron, ill see you tomorrow."
"You okay?" He asks.
I hug him goodnight. "Just fine." I lie. I put the dish away and head to my cell.
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Officer Blue (Rick Grimes FF)
Fanfiction25 year old Iris, has not seen a human since the 3 years she's been alone. It is until then she discovers that it's better for herself. She has secrets that need to be hidden and that's what separates her from the rest of everyone else. She may...
