Officer Blue (Rick Grimes FF)

Chapter 33-

The sun blares on my face, waking me up.  I move my hand to place on Rick's chest. It falls flatly on the floor.  He isn't here.

"They went to a food organization." I stare at Aron in confusion, curious to know who and also why he is talking to me.  "Why are you talking to me?" I get up to remove myself from being in the same room as him.

"I thought you would want to know. He wanted you to-"
'"Stop." I say furiously. My breathing becomes hard again. "What makes you think just because we're back at my house you think everything is alright?"

"It ha-"
"Stop talking!" I raise my voice causing Maggie and Glenn to come down.  "What's  goin on here." Maggie asks calmy. I ignore her.

"Think before you talk.   We're never going back to the way we used to be."  This time i don't feel any pitty towards him. "You don't get to try to make things right because they aren't.  You messed up...wait, you screwed  up everything!"  He stares at me with his eyes boiled. I can't be in the same room as him.

"We need to keep our voices down." Glenn insists. "Why? We're all going to die anyways! Might get shot, torn by walkers, killed by people...no body-"

Glenn wacks him in the head, knocking him out.  It startles me at first but im glad he did it. "Thank you guys....for everything."

In the corner of my eye i see Carl.  I feel bad that he has to go through this.  All of us. "What do we do with him?" Maggie looks at me with the sympathy i don't need. "I guess tie him up and we keep eye on him like we've been doing." My eyes focus back to Carl and my thoughts on Rick.

"Rick's coming back. They know what they're doing, how to keep eachother alive.  He'll be okay." It's like Glenn can read my thoughts.  Moving forward, ration food in the kitchen with Carl by my side.

"Judith likes the bed and the toys." He pulls out two bowls and food as he tries to enlighten the mood.   I know he's trying and im glad to have him here.

"I might have some baby stuff in the attick. We can check after we eat. And..." He looks at me in confusion.  "I have comics in the guest room. My ex was a comic reader." I nudge him on the side with my elbow.  I'm trying my best to not sulk in front of anyone.  Especially Rick when he has stressed piled on top of him. "Really?" I love seeing the kid smile.  I take his hand and lead him to the comics. 

"Now these..." i pull out Marvel comics. "Are my favorite." They were also Zach's favorite. He will never die from me.

"No way!" He says excitedly.  We sit down together, enjoying the time we have relaxing instead of running. 

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Wahh! Wahh!

My eyes shot open to a baby crying. Not just any baby, but Judy who lies in my arms.  When did i put her there?

"I brought her in here with us.  She shouldn't be alone..." he says with a straight face. "But she isn't alone. She was with Tara, Rosita and-" Recognizing what he meant alone i give him a simple nod until i hear the downstairs door open and the sound of Rick's voice. With Judy in my arms, we take off to see boxes of food and tired people.

Judith's smile turns wider as she sees her dad.  Well, all of us do. "I'm glad youre safe." He bends to my level leaving a kiss. "How are you holding up?" I know what he means.  After all the trauma of yesterday, my breakdown. "I'm good officer." I wish there could be more time between us.We haven't had that at all but maybe this house will give us that. 

Everyone walks through the door and Michonne tells me something. "Meet Rick by car by dusk." That's all I'm  left.  Clueless while looking at Rick who has a playful smirk on his face. I can't help but feel my curiosity rise. 

The last person is Gabriel and No Daryl or Carol. "Guys, where's Daryl and Carol?"
"I thought he stayed behind." Sasha states.
Everyone looks around the room. "They probably went to check on something. We can wait-"

"Noon has hit, time to get on the road. We have half our share." Abraham and his obsession. "We have to wait." I demand. "And for what? It's past noon already.  The more shit we talk about the less time we have to do."

"We are going to wait for Daryl and Carol.  Leaving us with less people is putting my family at risk again." Rick has read my mind, taking over for me.  He stares harshly in Abraham's eyes.

"Rosita, Eugene, Maggie and Glenn...lets get a move on!" I am so frustrated with his mind set on Washington. He thinks only about himself and this is why people die. Before i can raise my fist, Rick sneaks his arms around my waist like he knew what i was about to do.

Then he whispers in my ear.
"We'll be okay."