soulmates - yoonmin

42| Jimin

a/n:
I could've used a simple picture but I'm so in love with this fanart, so credits to the artist - well done!

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Jimin didn't know what to do.

There he was. Hugging his hurting hyung, while his own heart cried from the faint, but still painful stinging sensations that felt like knives stabbing holes into every little inch of it.

He didn't know why Yoongi said sorry.
He didn't know why he cried.

All he knew was that he wanted him to stop crying. To stop hurting.

Jimin gently pulled away, looked into his hyung's hurting eyes and realized that he himself had started crying, too.

Yoongi slowly let go of Jimin and averted his gaze to nowhere in particular. Jimin knew that his hyung was embarrassed and not able to look him in the eyes right now. He, on the other hand, couldn't find the strength to look away.

Y: "I'm sorry."

JM: "For what?"

Yoongi's body tensed visibly.

Y: "For everything. If it weren't for me, they wouldn't have made your life a living hell. You wouldn't have had to suffer like this. Jimin, I don't expect you to accept my apology, but..."

Another tear escaped his left eye and Jimin's stomach clenched.

He didn't know what to do. The younger wanted to hug Yoongi and kiss it all better, but he knew he never could. So he just barely kept control and stood right where he was.

JM: "Please don't cry, hyung. You have no reason to apologi-"

Y: "I have every reason to apologize!"

Jimin was taken aback by the sincerity in Yoongi's aching voice and the room fell silent.

Y: "I'm sorry for..."

Yoongi took a deep breath and crouched down, eyes fixed to the ground.

Y: "... for starting it all. I didn't know how to... to react back then. You were always so cute and happy and you just reminded me of the sun. Everyone around you was always smiling, always laughing, always happy. And that made me smile and laugh and let me be happy. And then one day you came up to me and I... I freaked."

Yoongi shook his head and took another deep breath, slowly getting up again. His fingernails started scratching the nape of his neck in embarrassment. It was obviously hard for him to say it out loud.

Y: "I'm sorry for punching you - for hurting you. Shit, I'm really not good with words... But I also need to... explain... you see..."

Yoongi took another nervous breath and Jimin couldn't hold back anymore. He saw Yoongi's pain and - destiny only knows how - he also felt it. He felt it in every inch of his body. So he reached out to gently wipe away his hyung's tears. Yoongi's eyes found his as he kept on explaining.

Y: "My parents are very strict and conservative people. My friends and I were raised believing that being gay means going against nature."

Jimin stopped in his tracks. Eyes still locked with his hyung's. And while Yoongi's fingers were carefully placed on the younger boy's waist, shivers ran down the younger boy's spine.

Y: "And suddenly there you were, openly admitting to be attracted to.. to me."

Jimin suddenly felt the urge to step away in embarrassment, but Yoongi wouldn't let him. Jimin was sure he was blushing hard. Instead, his hyung pulled him a little closer, not taking his eyes off of him.