The Guardian Villain ( Shigaraki x Reader)

Plans

    After that day Shigiraki would leave for hours at a time without telling anyone where he was going. He didn't even tell Kurogiri where he he would go.

    Y/n worked hard to distract herself from the voice since it had become more consistent. The others could tell when the voice was really bugging her because she would go quiet. That's when they would constantly reassure her that whatever the voice was saying was a lie.

    Multiple times Dabi and the others would ask Shigiraki why she has to keep the voice, when he was there of course. He always said that he can't talk about it and told them to be patient.

    Y/n heard this multiple times because she would ask him before they went to sleep when he was going to tell her what was going on. She was beginning to wonder if she should really trust him. Sometimes she though about going back to her old life. Lunch Rush would gladly take her back and would hide his knives for her. When she thought like this though she scolded herself.

    Shigiraki has a reason for not telling me and I should trust him. He wouldn't do anything to hurt me. She told herself this often.

    One night though she had had a particularly brutal argument with thw voice in her head about him. She ended up crying. Shigiraki had woken up because he felt her body shaking next to his and he rolled over to hold her like he did every other time she had cried. He felt guilty, knowing the voice was the cause of this.

    "Soon. Just give me a bit more time to figure this all out." He said.

    "What do you need to even figure out? Why am I even trusting you?"

    That hurt him but he understood.  He questioned it himself. Why would she trust him after finding out he's a villain? He half expects her to turn and leave at any moment. He wakes up and makes sure she's still there every morning, because half of him feels like all of this is a dream and he'll wake up the next morning to go attack the USJ as planned.

    "I don't know. I wouldn't trust me if I was in your position, but please just give me more time. This will all be over sokn amd you can go back to living your normal life." That made her freeze.

    "Go back? Do you mean to tell me you plan on leaving?"

    "No. I don't plan on leaving. What I'm planning though... it may not end well for me. For you though, you'll be able to finally get rid of that voice. The students of UA will be able to live in peace for the most part. The rest of the League can decide what they want to do if it goes bad for me."

    "No. Find another way. I'm not loosing you pr anyone else just because of this stupid voice."

    "As nice as that sounds someone will end up lost no matter what I do. I spent hours and hours thinking of everything, making multiple plans, and in every single one someone ended up dead or in jail when it played out. This is just the one where no one I care about gets caught or hurt physically. I know it sounds selfish but I'd rather it be me that takes the fall than the rest of you." I didn't realize I had been pacing until I stopped talking. She was sitting and facing me.

    "And what would the others think? Believe it or not Shigiraki, they actually care about you too. Every day when you disappear all of us get worried. What if a hero sees you and takes you in? What if you get attacked by another villain that wants to get rid of the competition? There are too many possibilities and here you are making a plan that cpuld end up getting you taken in when you being taken is one of our worst fears?"

    "I don't see why you all care that much. I'm a shitty leader and I've hurt all of you multiple times. I'm currently hurting you right now by having you keep the voice until I can complete this plan."

    "We care and we stay because we love you." What did she just say? "You're family to them Tomura. Can't you see that? They aren't here for any grand schemes or any of that. They are here to say fuck you to those who have hurt them. They stay because you took them in and treated them with kindness. You gave them a family when they had none to go back to." Is that true? Do they really see me as family? "And I care because for the firdt time in my whole life someone showed me kindness without expecting anything back. Even though you were a villain and you were scared of being caught you took care of me. When I was upset you didn't judge. You just stayed with me. You showed me what it's like to feel true happiness. Before I met you I had know one to wait impatiently for. I love you Tomura, and I can't lose you. I'd rather suffer and complain about this stupid voice than lose the one person I care about more than anyone else."

    She loves me? When did this happen? Why did this happen? Why do I suddenly feel scared to do this? I just have one more step but if it goes wrong...

    "If you can pull this off with out failing then go ahead but remember,  life isn't a video game. If you fail a level you don't get to retry or return to the last checkpoint. You could end up dead."

    "I can do it. I just need to play my cards right." She pulls me down onto the bed and laid down.

    "I trust you. Please be careful though."

    I will. I will show you that you didn't put your love in the wrong person. I can't lose you either. That's why I'm doing this.