"I guess my chance to dance with my father will happen in paradise. But I will always have this lifetime to dance with The Father."
Finally, the part of the book where I will give my reasons why I entitled this book Dance With the Father. Some books will have that part at the introduction, but I have decided to place mine at the last part.
I wanted to share my memories of my father for the past 29 years we have been together. For some, that is already long since some children lost their fathers at an early age, but losing a father is still painful even if it happened early or later in one's life. I cannot remember everything that happened during our times together, but those memories will be forever treasured in my heart. Sharing it makes me realize how I learned so much from my father, that even now that he is gone, I am still learning from him. He is part of me. He will always be part of me.
Dance, as defined in Merriam Webster, is to move one's body rhythmically usually to music. I may not be a musician nor a dancer, but I considered life as music. It can be sad, happy, fast, or slow. And as I dance through the music, it is always best to dance with a partner―someone who can do lifts when you are down. I choose God, our Father, to be my lifetime dance partner. As a child, I would love to step on the feet of my Papa as we walk. I am choosing to remain like a child in need of a father; of God the Father's love and care. I will always be His daughter; His princess whom He will dance with.
Another reason why I called my book this way is because I love watching a father and a daughter dance in weddings. As a part-time wedding coordinator, I get to watch fathers and daughters dance together and it actually makes me feel happy and sad at the same time. My dream of being walked down the aisle by my father on my wedding day will never come true anymore. My own father and daughter dance will never happen. He didn't even had the chance to meet my future husband. He didn't meet the second man that I will love with all my heart. He wasn't able to "threaten" the man that I will love. I was looking forward to the day that it will be my turn to dance with him and to wait for him to hand me over to the man who will be my life partner. However, even if he cannot walk me down the aisle and dance with me, I know he watches over me. He is in me. He is in the people that loves him. He is in the people that he loved.
"You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent. Lord my God, I will praise you forever." ― Psalm 30:11-12
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Dance With the Father
SpiritualitéA narration of a true story about grieving and healing This is my personal story. I dream of publishing this one day. But for now, I hope I can share to you my journey. To my father, Bernie - the imperfect but perfect father to me - and to all fath...