Learning To Love Myself

Scars

Everyday I would wear hoodies

To cover the scars I had.

Nobody really cared about me. 

I was a nobody. 

I had no friends 

All I did was cry in the corner outside of school

Sometimes cutting myself 

To remind me of my parents. 

They may be horrible

But I loved them. 

My eyes are always red everyday. 

Somehow I was able to maintain my grades. 

I live alone in a rental home

I would work all the time after school. 

I would be the janitor. 

I get a good amount of salary everyday

At least enough to pay my rent. 

Even the I don't talk to those people. 

They were kind enough to take me in though. 

I never made friends 

Fall in love

or even smiled. 

I was always emotional 

and always cry myself to sleep. 

The people I pay to for my rent are worried

But I ignore them 

Because if I talk to them

I'll start caring 

And if I loose them 

It'll be just like my past.

When I shower I bring a blade with me 

I would watch the blood flow out of my skin 

Running down the drain.