Learning To Love Myself

The Note

I took the note outside of the bathroom.

I wiped my tears and began to read.

"Dear Luke,

I knew that you would read this first, 

since I knew that you'd read my book. 

This is the end I guess.

I'm sorry for letting you help me for nothing. 

I tried.

I really did, 

but I miss my parents. 

I want to join them. 

Thank you for your help, 

support, 

and your love for me. 

For once I was happy. 

For once I felt loved again. 

For once I didn't have to cry myself to sleep. 

I hated myself. 

More than my parents. 

I love you Luke.

No matter what happens

I will always love you. 

'Then why would you leave me' you ask? 

I don't want you down with me. 

I'm afraid that you will regret loving me. 

I love you so so so much. 

But I guess my love story ends here.

Good-bye Luke." 

I wiped the buckets of tears off my face.

I became so fragile.

But I have to live, 

for her sake. 

I want to live remembering her. 

I want to live knowing that she died for me. 

Knowing that she cared for me, 

loved me. 

I must go on but not without her. 

She will be with me 

in my heart. 

Thank you for making me feel loved too. 

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ik ik ik.... why did you end it? i have more plans but i need to focus on my other book too. Hopefully this satisfies you. Hopefully that you like the ending. Well that's all!!! 

BAI BAI 

PEACE <3