The Target

Stalker...

Alone. I am completely alone. Harry visits every day to make sure I am ok. Mum and dad came to Manhattan to stay with me. But how long will they stay? A week? A month? Eventually, they'll leave as well. My life is spiraling downwards and there is nothing I can do about it. Sometimes I feel like I am the reason for my misery. But then I remember Adam accusing me of cheating on him and self-pity eventually turns into frustration.

Every person has a different way of coping with depression. I cut and drink. Nightmares are a constant friend. I don't leave my bed for days at end and when I do, I go out and drink my ass off. What my life is, is misery. Right now, I am struggling to find a cab. I did what I do best. I got up and went to a local bar. Now I am ready to pass out. Everything is a bit blurry but nothing I can't put up with. Soon enough a cab stopped and I scrambled in the backseat. I gave the address and we started moving.

The next morning, I have a massive hangover. My head hurts and the room is spinning. I get down from my bed and stand up. As soon as I leave my bed I stumble on the floor. How much did I drink last night? I thought. I mean, I've had hangovers before but none this big. Somehow, I managed to make my way into the living room, where my dad was on the couch and bingeing 'Friends'. My mom was in the kitchen. When my dad saw me, he immediately ran over to help me. I was about to fall on him, but I was quick to hold the dining table for support. "Wait! What time is it?" I asked dad. "Honey, it's 2.30 in the afternoon." "What?!!" I exclaimed. "I have to meet Harry at 3." Harry asked me if I wanted to hang out since we have not done that in a long time. I said yes. I don't want Adam's insecurity to get in the way of my one friend left.

"Honey, you don't have to go! It's ok if you want to stay at home," Dad said, calmly. "No! I want to go. I need the break. I'll tell him that I will be late," I told dad and went back to my room to text Harry. I took a shower, letting the cold water drip over every inch of my body, and got dressed up. I was ready by 3.05. "I'll see you in the evening," I waved to mom and dad.

Twenty minutes later I was in Starbucks waiting for Harry. While looking out the window to look out for Harry's car, I saw a familiar figure peeking out from a car across the road. No. It can't be. I thought. There is no way! The driver noticeably flinched and started the car, as if he noticed me staring at him. Just as the car drove away, Harry's car arrived and parked right in front of the cafe. I smiled and waved to him through the window, forgetting the incident.

"Amy!! Hi. Oh, I missed you so much," Harry said as soon as he approached my table. I gave him a small smile and hugged him.

I already gave the order because I knew his preferences. "So, I haven't seen you since yesterday," he said with a chuckle. I just smiled. I saw his face drop when he didn't get the response he was expecting. "So... Are you ok?" He asked. Am I ok? Let's see! In the span of a year, I have lost four people and got two fingers. I'll receive two more but god knows when. The police are not doing anything. The detective says she is trying her best but who knows. So, if this is all ok, then yes, I am ok.

"Come on, Amy. You are supposed to lighten up. Not cry!" Harry whined. I realized I started crying while counting the drama in my life. I wiped my face and asked him about him. Apparently, he got promoted and met a girl. They have been dating for a month but he didn't tell anyone. I felt guilty because whenever Harry would get a new girlfriend or met someone he liked, he would run straight to Lewis to tell him. Now he doesn't have him. I smiled meekly at Harry's accomplishments in life. Involuntarily, my attention darted to a familiar black car parked less than a mile away.

I scrunched my eyes to get a better look and saw it. Him. What the fuck is Adam doing? I thought.

Harry called out to me to get my attention back at him. "Penny for your thoughts, Amy?" Harry said. I gaped at Harry as my eyes were traveling between him and Adam.

"Adam's here!" I said.