(jiara) i want you

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im gonna bless you guys with this picture of this guy i found on tik tok, sorry its not a jiara one i dont have anymore and my laptops kinda spazzing out at the minute soo...yeah anyways hes beautiful so its ok.

TW- suicide threats.

jjs pov

i went into my den, feeling like shit, not only did i have to go to bed tonight without kiara but he had to sit there and know that it was partly my fault that she was out there freezing and most probably crying.

hearing her shout at me today killed me, i just wanted to grab her, and hug her and just make her feel better, but i couldn't everything i said she would shut me down, and i guess rightfully so, but i just wanted to talk to her, without arguing.

i also wanted to talk to pope it was his fault that, i had lost kiara i did it all for him and he didn't even forgive me for "flirting" with her.

it was now like midnight, everyone was asleep, but i just couldn't, so i got up and went to the sea bank where i had sat with kiara, the night after she had been bitten, i sat there and just stared at the water, throwing rocks as far as i could, soon enough i hear foot steps approaching me, i turned around to see kiara, she had my jumper on and her cheeks were tears stained, i sighed when seeing her, i wanted to talk to her but i didn't wanna hurt her again.

she came and sat down next to me, there was a little bit of space between us separating us, 'couldn't sleep?' she asked staring straight at the ocean.

general pov

he turned his head to face her before answering, 'nope, you' she shook her head before one more tear fell down her cheek, 'why jj' she said sniffling, he sighed, 'i didn't wanna lose pope' he admitted, 'i know and i- i understand that but you could have told me or just pretended things were fine or- or' she was muffled with her words not really knowing what to say, 'all im tryna say jj is there are a million other ways you could have gone around the situation, but instead you completely blocked me from your life and it made me feel like shit jj'

hearing her say his name in such a sad manor, made jjs heart break, he wanted to sit there and cry but he couldn't not while kiaras was there.

he sighed and so did she, she finally turned to him to speak, he stayed staring at the ocean not wanting to make eye contact with her, 'we had something jj, didn't we?... something more then a friendship' he stayed silent, 'look at me jj' she was crying, he turned to her crying eyes, 'dont tell me there isn't something here' she said.

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jjs pov

of course there something there how couldn't there be. in that moment all i could think about was pope, i couldn't do that to him, i couldn't tell kiara that i liked her, not like this.

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he sighed, 'n- no kie, there's nothing here' with that he stood up and turned to there tent, he walked back and layed down so she couldn't see or hear him and started crying.

when she heard those words her mouth went wide and her eyes filled with tears, she thought she loved the guy, and he just went and pushed her away like that.

kiara couldn't do this anymore, it was too much, she and just lost pope and now jj too, and all the anger she had made her hate john B too for lying straight to her face about, and she wasn't that close to cleo anyways, so the only person she really had was sarah, who was trying to help her the whole time, her arguments with pope were just to help her, but it had only made things worse.

kiara found an old piece of material lying around and some coal from the old fire, she started writing a note.

to sarah...

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the pogues woke up early that morning, every single one of them with the intention to talk to kie, pope wanted to clear the air, jj wanted to apologize, john B felt bad for lying and sarah needed to make sure her best friend was alright.

sarah and john B were the first to get up, they went to the place kiara had slept last night only to see shes not there, they found this super weird because kiara was just like jj, the two of them would sleep until they absolutely would have to get up, they looked over the area and found a rough note.

sarah picked it up and her and john B read it,

to sarah,

things are getting pretty hard for me right now and with jj and pope, and i just cant deal with it all, i left to end things fully and put me out of my misery

tears were filling sarah and john Bs eyes,

i wrote this letter out to you sarah because although the boys have been there for me for a while now, you was always my best friend even through ur rough patch, you tried helping me through the jj and pope situation and you helped me with my past, so thank you sarah, i hope you know i love you and that i love the pogues to, you guys were my family and ill never forget it, but my times over now,

goodbye xx

sarah dropped to her knees in tears screaming, 'NOOO' she kept the letter tight in her hands screaming, john B dropped onto the floor as well, not knowing what to do, within seconds of sarah screaming jj, pope and cleo were all up and awake, 'whats wrong' pope asked really confused, sarah dropped the note at there feet, she looked jj and pope dead in the eyes, 'you guys did this!' she cried.

the three of them read the note all falling to tears, 'no, no we have to find her she could still be alright' pope said, 'how could she be alright! you caused her to kill herself because of your selfishness, she could be any where right now this was clearly done last night' sarah said still crying, jj just stayed quiet crying.

'no, no popes right, we have to look for her, shes still a pogue and we do not let pogues die' john B said, 'everyone split up and of you find her just shout and we'll all come' he said, and with that they all split up into the forest.