(jiara) i want you

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on the way back to the boys they stopped at kiaras house to pick up some stuff for the boys to stay at jb's and sarahs.

'hey' kiara said in a tired voice as they opened the doors to the boys, 'hey finally your back' jj replied as he gave her a kiss, while jake jumped into her arms, 'kie kie' he said, she smiled as she picked him up, 'hey bud' she said he smiled as he layed his head on her shoulder, 'have you been a good boy for johnny bee and chay chay' she asked, he smiled as he nodded, 'yef' he replied 'good' she replied as she put him down on the sofa.

she then turned to jj and gave him a hug, 'hey you alright' he asked, 'yeah' she murmured, he smiled, 'good, now where were you, you was out for hours its almost 11 o'clock' he said, 'yeah guys we were worried' john b added as he hugged sarah, 'we was just out' kiara said in a tired and stressed voice, 'you sure you seem stressed' jj said as he assessed her, she slightly smiled pulling away from him, 'im fine its been a long day' she said as she slumped onto the sofa with sarah, 'can you please tell us where you were' john b said as the boys sat down next to them, the girls looked at each other with a sigh, 'lets put the kids to bed and then we will' kiara said as her and sarah got up to put the boys to sleep, the boys looked at each other confused but nodded along with the girls as they followed them to the bedroom, 'night bud' kiara said as she kissed his head and sarah layed down kai, 'good night kie kie' jake said back as he hugged her, she smiled as the others said good night and left them.

'so... what happened today' jj asked as they all sat back down, kiara sighed, 'we saw her' the boys looked confused, 'her?' jb questioned, 'laura' sarah finished a tear fell from kiaras eye jj saw and wiped it away holding her, 'what happened' he asked, 'kiara went off at her' sarah said with a smile and a little more enthusiasm then intended, kiara shot a sad glance at her, 'it was a good thing though she deserved it' she reassured, jj smiled a soft smile, 'wish i was there to see it' he laughed, 'same' john b replied, sarah giggled, 'i videoed it so you can' kiara eyes widen 'wait what' she asked confused, sarah shrugged as she pulled out her phone leaning over to the middle so everyone could see.

suddenly all you could hear was:

'how could you, those boys are so amazing and beautiful and... hurt, they ask me everyday, when's mummy coming home, when we gonna see mummy again and ive just got to sit there and lie to them and tell them that they'll see you soon when i know that, thats not gonna happen because of your selfish needs to be by your self and make a bunch of 17 year olds look after your 2 year old and new born baby...'

'do you know how hard it is, waking up in the middle of the night because they had a nightmare or because they need feeding'

'yes of course i know what its like! i had to do it for 2 years'

you. are. there. mother! when you decided to give birth to them you took on those responsibilities as a mother... I DIDNT, but some how im still the one feeding them each day, getting them dressed and showered each morning, making sure they get to bed on time, and waking up at 3 am just to put them back to sleep... how is that fair!

'the boys love you... it was the best option' laura said,

'a- and i love them to but im 17! and im not there mother... i would do anything to make sure there ok... but its just so hard!' she cried.

they all looked at kiara who was now quietly crying, jj turned and hugged her, 'you did good baby' he whispered to her, john b smiled, 'you one fire ball aren't you kie' he said, she smiled with a laugh, 'it was stress full and to be honest i dont know why i did that because i love those boys but i still did it... i- i tried to get rid of them to someone who clearly isn't stable to look after them, GOD! what is wrong with me' she cried to herself, jj gripped her tighter from behind settling his head on her shoulder, 'stop kie you did great amazing even you put her in her place and you still kept those boys here and safe' he said to her, 'yeah kie you were amazing stop blaming your self, you dont have to take the blame for everything that happens you know' sarah said kiara breathed in and nodded, 'yeah ok' she replied.

after she calmed down and the boys were asleep she gave jb the bag she had packed for the boys and then her and jj left.

when they got back to the Carrera house they were greeted by both mike and anna 'where have you two been' anna started, kiara rolled her eyes to tired and stressed to deal with her parents rubbish at the minute, she walked past them and straight up to her room leaving jj alone to deal with them, 'hey... soooo' he started, 'where have you guys been and what is up with my daughter' mike stated, 'well ive been at john bs with the boys' he said, 'and kiara!?' mike said again, 'shes uhm, shes had a very stress full day' jj said.

him then having to explain what happened with her and showing them the video before quickly leaving to kiaras room, 'what the fuck kie! i just had to deal with your parents on my OWN! thats the longest conversation ive ever had with them' kiara giggled, 'sorry i just couldn't deal with them right now' she said gesturing him to come and lay with her, he smiled as he layed on top of her laying his head in her neck, 'i know, you've had a long day' he said as he kissed her cheek, she smiled, 'i love you' she said to him, he smiled, 'i love you more' he replied