Guardian (Captain America FF book 2)

Chapter 23: The Argument

Hey guys. Been a while I know. But there are only seven chapters left after this. I promise in the next book there will be tons of excitement and twists.

Jade Aurora

I looked at the scenery around me. Thinking I had freedom as I sat on a front porch. I seemed to be in the German countryside. I was extremely peaceful, blissful. I smiled to myself as relaxed. My smile grew when I heard the porch door open along with heavy footsteps.

I giggled when arms snaked around my waist and warm lips pressed to my lips. "Hello yourself." I muttered as his neck kissing got more aggressive. Next thing I know he's got his hands all over me in ways I wished hadn't happened. Soon I lay on the cold floor as he walked away zipping his pants up.

The tears flowed in rivers as I bled, ached, and bruised in places I shouldn't. All I could summon was "Why?" The man stopped, not bothering to look at me as what once thought was beautiful nature disappeared like the hologram it turned out to be. "Because you are worthless."

I sat up screaming. Like horror movie screaming. When there was movement next to me I lost it. I fell off the bed, scrambling backwards blindly in fear. "Jade! What's wrong?" asked a painfully familiar voice that made things worse.

I close my eyes in fear, holding my hands in front of me as I screeched "Stay away from me!!!" The voice went silent as I cowered in a corner. I shook in fear as I rocked myself back and forth gripping my head. He advanced on me again, only setting me off again. "Don't come any closer to me!"

I sobbed to myself as I continued to have a mental episode in the corner. "Jade..." his soft voice pleaded. "let me help." I shook my head, shouting in anger "Leave me alone!"

My whole body racked in fear as I added "You stay away from me!" I fought the flashbacks that brought back some of my most haunting memories. I whimpered as I remember my continuous rapes, beatings, and experiments. "Jade, please." Steve asked again. I stand up, angry "You have done enough!"

Steves voice remained soft and gentle. "Please tell me what's wrong." I laugh bitterly as tears still poured down my face. "Wrong? What is wrong? My whole life is one big mistake!"

Steve steps closer to me with a serious look on his face "That is not true." I back away, ready to prove my point "Really. Because it seems like it. Hydra was punishment for becoming good, a hero, for caring for others, for loving you! And if I hadn't let my feelings cloud me then.... then...."

Steve opens his mouth to speak but I cut him off harshly "Name one genuinely good thing that has happened to me. Wether it be from knowing me or my damn file."

Steves mouth closed for a moment before he finally said "Becoming a hero, becoming a part of our family, meeting your father, coming to Asgard. Doesn't that count for something?"

I take a shaky breath, closing my eyes as I stated "It doesn't take away the pain, agony, and memories." This caused Steve to fall silent, giving my opportunity to continue. "I pretend that I'm fine. That I'm feeling better. But it tears me apart inside. The mental pain physically hurts. Every waking moment I'm in dire pain. But I became so perfect at lying I believe it myself."

Steve stepped closer, leaving about two yards between us "Why didn't you tell me?" I held back tears as I answered coldly "Because I don't want anyone else getting hurt. And you, they have already used you in horrible ways against me, I'm still recovering from it. But I don't want the tables to turn, and Hydra using me against you. I can't have you go through that. It's to much to bear. It almost killed me."

Steve ran a hand through his hair, looking deep in thought. "You were dreaming about how they used me against you." He had figured it out. I swallowed hard, biting my lip "I'm sorry." Steve shakes his head, resting his hands on his hips "You have nothing to be sorry about."

I laughed bitterly, tears falling down my face "Nothing to be sorry about? I have everything to be sorry about! I killed hundreds upon hundreds, ruined lives and I didn't even blink. Then I made my biggest mistake."

Steve crosses his arms and asks seriously "And what is that?"

I clench my fists, struggling but I finally got the words out. "Falling in love with you."