guard you; jilix

when i sink to the ground

AND JULY: HEIZE

jisung pov-
"since today was our last day of school we will be going to a party " i run up, scaring felix.

"PLEASE STOP SCARING ME " he turns and pouts "anyway have fun "  he goes to walk off.

"what ? no you're coming with me, felix please it's the last day " i hold his hand.

"but i have nothing to wear and my dad will say no and um.. i um i don't even know the person hosting the party and well if you get drunk i dont want to babysit that and " i give felix a quick kiss to shut him and his bad excuse up.

"yes you do, he'll be fine with it, it's at hyunjins and i won't get drunk " felix sighs and starts dragging me in the direction of his place.

"you can ask father while i pee then pick me an outfit " i smile and let him drag me the whole way back.
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felix comes into the room with his cat "your dad said you should go " he throws the cat at me. "hey its gonna be fine, i promise nothing will hurt you " he sits next to me.

"go pick my outfit " i get up and look through his clothes.

"you have so many of my hoodies im gonna need to start stealing these back "

"NOO !!!! " i smile and go back to looking for an outfit.

"omg when and where did you get this from " i hold up a crop top.

"put that away !! " he gets up and takes it from me "one of our neighbours gave my dad her daughter's old clothes because she thought i was female and my dad found it funny "

"wear this it will look so good on you " he dramatically falls back on the bed. i keep looking to see what would match. "mm you would so pretty in shorts "

"i'll get cold " i roll my eyes and keep looking. "them !! sung im wearing the cargo pants you got me " i throw the outfit at him.

"go change " i push him out the room while i pick out his shoes and accessories.

felix comes out "i hate you give me a hoodie "

"i have one of those jackets, you know the stereotypical collage boy ones " felix stares at me, i sigh and get a photo up. just an oversized black jacket with white leather sleeves.

after putting the accessories on we leave to my house to change into my outfit.
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"you want me to hold your hand when we get in there " i point at the front door, felix nods and gets closer to me "if you get uncomfortable just tell me and we can leave " felix nods again. i hold my hand out for him to hold.

i walk over and push the door open "jisung felix you made it, i was worried you weren't gonna come " hyunjin smiles while sounding very sober ?

"it took alot of convincing to get felix to come with me but yeah here we are " hyunjin laughs and drags us in.

"felix you look breathtaking today " felix squeezes my hand "since you and my best friend are in love or whatever i got stuck with second choice " i notice how uncomfortable felix is getting.

"me and felix are gonna get some drinks talk to you later " i pull felix to the drinks table. "are you ok " he nods "felix you haven't said a word since we got here are you sure you're ok "

"yeah there's just alot of people, im not really used to this " i smile at him and hold his other hand.

"you're doing so well baby, im so proud " i kiss his forehead "now what do you want to drink, alcohol or want me to find something else "

"can we find other drinks and maybe a kiss " he smiles at me. i go to kiss his cheek he moves last minute for a kiss on the lips.

"now let's go get you something to drink and somewhere quiet to sit " he nods and follows me to the kitchen.

"hey sung can we walk faster chan is giving me dirty looks " i turn around and go to talk to him before felix stops me "can we just avoid him i really don't want to talk to him " i go back to walking to the kitchen, now pissed off.

"they have fanta here " i turn and see felix trying to grab it "aw can you not reach " i grab it and hand it to him (this is why you wear platforms ).

"i hate you and you shoes " he pouts. i smile and pat his head "stopp ! my hair, you monster " i turn and grab the strong alcohol. i feel a small hand trying stop me.

"you said you wouldn't get drunk !!! i don't want to baby sit a drunk teenager " felix takes my drink away.

"i'll be careful " he sighs and gives the dr
ink back.
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i feel warm and slightly dizzy, it's not bad but everything just feels more relaxed and carefree, even the early 2000s music sounds like masterpieces.

i look around for felix, not finding him anywhere i walk over to hyunjin "hey hyun " i yell over the music.

"what do you need " he replies with the same volume.

"have you seen felix anywhere " hyunjin looks around, being taller means he can see more of the room.

"no maybe he went outside " i nod and walk towards the backdoor, on my way i see minho and changbin making out. i get past them without interrupting their moment and get outside.

i stumble over to felix and sit down next to him. "done getting drunk " he keeps scrolling through instagram, refusing to look at me "what happened to being careful "

"im sorry lix, i don't really know what happened " i take my jacket off and put it on felixs shoulders "you were shivering "

felix looks at my arms and blushes a bit "it's fine i was just annoyed you left me " he leans into me, i smile and put my arm around him. "aren't you gonna get cold " he questions.

"i don't care its way too hot in there also i feel bad for leaving you " felix hums and plays with the rings on his fingers "when do you want to leave ? " i say while putting a cigarette between my lips and lighting it.

"maybe at eleven " i get my phone out and check the time, felix looks over to also check it "so we have thirty minutes "

"you wanna go inside or sit here a little longer " i ask while holding felix a little closer.

"we should sit out here a little longer, you need to sober up " he hands me his bottle of water then goes in my jacket pocket to get gum out.

i think im ready to tell felix i love him and its not the alcohol and nicotine talking.. maybe not today since he would shake it off as drunk jisung but definitely soon.
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lol when i first wrote this i had never drunk more than a sip of alcohol now i go out and drink with friends (literally have two huge bottles of vodka in my room ) T_T i have such a high tolerance i only get tipsy. lol (-:<