Everything Has Changed

Why Them ? Why Me?

London. A dazzling and historical city of England. Big roads, fancy stores, tourists, loud speaking, gossips and rumors everywhere.

And there he was. Walking down the street quietly, alone, with his blue hat on and his hands in his pockets. He goes home after an extremely tiring day of shooting. Yes, he works as an actor and he's really well known all around the world. Every teenage girl is in love with him. They have posters of him on their walls and want a picture with him. But women would die to have him. Would die to touch him. To touch his silk blonde hair and look deep into those blue eyes.

After all he doesn't want any relationship. He doesn't want love yet. All that a relationship can cause is trouble and only trouble. Women only wanted him for his good looking appearance. They never tried to see his emotions, his real character. He wanted a woman to love him for who he really is and not because of his appearance or his work. No!

"Trouble. Relationships is for weak people. I'm strong and I don't want to get in trouble AGAIN because I fell in love. Actually I can't fall in love...God what am I even saying...?" he was thinking and then giggled at his thoughts.

Suddenly a group of girls passed and he can swear, they were talking about him. He giggled again and then a girl pat him on his back. He turned around and put on his fake smile.

" Hey um...i was wondering if I can have a picture with you Mr. Alwyn and an autograph" the girl asked with her lighting smile. She couldn't be more than 16 and her eyes were begging for a picture with him.

"Sure girl. And call me Joe, I feel like an old man when they call me mister." he laughs a little and then the girl put out of her pocket her phone, goes close to him and takes a selfie with them smiling.

"What's your name? I mean you know mine but I don't know yours" he says and still smiles

"Sabrina" she says looking happy

"Ok Sabrina, do you have a pen or a marker maybe?"

"Of course I do, duh" she says and they laugh. She gives him the marker and he signs her sleeve on her shirt under a sword. He then noticed something

"Is that me from my recent movie?" he said like he didn't recognize himself.

"Yes and you were so great. I'm in love with your acting"

"Aww thank you so much... High five" he said and the girl high fived with him

"Thank you too Joe" she smiled once again, she hugged him tight and then she left.

Now Joe was alone again heading to his house, smiling. He loves fans like this girl. They can change his mood into nanoseconds. He thought and smirked until he reach his door.

He pulled out the keys and unlocked the door and entered into his house. "Finally" he mumbled. It was 8 o clock and he was so exhausted. He climbed the stairs and went to his bedroom. He took off his clothes wearing only his underwear since it's summer and lay down on his bed. He sighed and then he turns on the TV trying to relax. He switches channels as he wants to watch something. Something caught his attention. His old favorite movie. Love Actually. He used to love this movie months ago but now he just thinks that it's all just so fake. Like love. Love is fake. Love is a fake sensation. Its like dust. Once it's there, once you blow it and it's gone, and that's it, that's the end.

"I think I should sleep and stop overthinking, it surely won't help" he whispered. But when he saw a kissing scene on TV he felt something in his veins. This something is annoyance. He threw within all of his power the remote control into the TV which made it shattered into little pieces.
"Fuck it, I'll buy another one. That's why money is for. To spend it"said and then closed his eyes.