Everything Has Changed

Where Did My Baby Go

...while the TV was playing in the back. The lights of it, were reflecting in the room when suddenly a loud gunshot from the movie, made him wake up. He sat up quickly and his right hand went immediately in the nightstand to grab the gun he was keeping there. Being alone again, made him feel empty and so, terrified.
Then, he understood that it came from the TV and just groaned and he turned it off. He lied his back again on the mattress and tried to sleep again. It wasn't easy. The empty space used to get covered by her body. Now it has nothing, except for some of her blond hair.

He took one of them in his hands examined it with his fingers. It's hers, her DNA is on it. He smiled and let it fall on the floor. It feels so much like a punishment for nothing he had done. How could she believe them, and not him? He just feels as if a part of him is missing.

And that's because of you Tom. It's all your fault. If you hadn't had these debts or if you had just told me to help, neither you nor Olivia would be dead and James could have been still with you, and I would have my girlfriend. Because, you're the cause this is happening. You made me promise to keep James safe and I tried and I'm still trying. They wanted to take him away! They took this fucking picture and they sent it to her! And that's because of you Tom! I hope you can hear me wherever you are right now.

Joe was just trying to find the cause of the problem. Somebody who could blame for it. Tom was the best solution. He was dead, he couldn't respond to him and he was a little source of the problem to speak the truth.

Suddenly, as Joe was talking to the wall across him, Benjamin jumped and landed right on his chest. Joe grinned at the sight of the kitten, trying to make himself comfortable on his chest. His hand, started caressing his soft tummy and Benjamin started purring. It was something that he was doing a lot, Joe noticed.

"Oh Benji. You miss your mom, don't you? I know how it is. I miss her too. I tried to take her back but she's not coming. I doubt if she wants to see me again after that. But it's not my fault buddy! All I did was my best to protect us. I just...i don't think I could ever find someone as special as her. She made me think of having a family with our own kids. Except for you dear. Do you think if I'm going to call she'll answer it? "

" Meowwwww"

"Is that a yes?"

"Meowww"

"I'm calling her then. I just hope she's not sleeping"

Joe, stretches his hand to take his phone that was lying on the other side of the bed and then he unlocks it. At first, he just stares at the photo of him and her. It looked as it was a sad memory that starts fading day by day. Though, he can't just lose his hope from now! He is not a loser! Not yet!

Soon, he found her contact. Taylor❤️. He just hesitates for a while to tap it. She made it clear that she doesn't want to see him again, but he didn't t do anything wrong. He needs to fix this. He has to to fix it for them. For both of them. He knows they won't survive away from each other for a long time and he already feels his saddest fear creeping in.

He doesn't waste anymore time and taps it. It calls and he just waits till the call ends. He groans. Is she sleeping?
From what Selena had told him, it wasn't easy for Taylor to sleep so he just assumed that she doesn't want to answer it or she has muted it. He won't stop calling though! He regrets not doing it earlier but at least he's trying now that his mind is clearer than before.
He calls her again and waits. Just waits.

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Taylor, is in the bathroom throwing up for the second time today. As she lets her back fall behind, she just feels hot tears streaming down her face. This is happening for less than a week and she hates it. She doesn't have a clue what it is, and hasn't said a word to Selena about it because she doesn't want to make her upset, but she just assumes that it's because all this pressure that is happening.